Tight Day...

Woke at 6am and my day never seems to be over. Went for LPGM meeting today. Nothing much, just kept on laughing and laughing and laughing. They were quite funny as usual. The only thing is the 'bubaring' thinggy. Some brainless people kept saying that they wanna bubar Band which made Majorette quite mad. They think it was funny but actually hurting someone. Dislike people like that sometimes...Haiz...Mojorette was quite upset after that. Though she knew that they were only joking in such a sense, she still can't seem to get over it. One more thing. I was expecting Biscuit to turn out but he didn't. So, I sort of misunderstood him that he had 'fang fei ji' and broke his promise. And had just found out that he was actually sick and fainted in the morning. Sorry ya....

Later, went round town running some errands. Am kinda relieve that I had finished some things I had been worrying about. It feels kinda fun walking round town alone. Though I had been joined by some friends earlier, it had been quite an accomplishment walking around running errands. I'm PROUD of myself!!!

Bumped into my family later and found out that some plans had been changed. They picked me up to have lunch and finished some 'left-overs' errands after that. Am so blissful that I have parents like mine. Can see that they really love me very much. Watched Bolt the superdog in action after having minutes of break with the Youths. My 1st attempt to MBO. Its kinda small just as I've expected and can hardly find people around. The show was very touching and AWESOME!!!! Bolt was exactly the dog I liked. Its so CUTE and fantastic!!! I'm lovin it! Bolt is the BEST!!! Please do go and watch it. If you are a pet lover, you won't regret any second of it.

Something struck me when I thought of snapping some shots. There I was, remembering that I had forgot to put back my memory card. Craps! I forgot to put it back. How could I be so careless!!! Haiz, must keep must limit my snapping skills today. What can do?? Gotta live with the fact anyway.

My next and last station was the steamboat & BBQ shop. Went 1hr earlier then was promised as it was more convenient for me after the show. Patiently waiting for them to arrive. Witnessed typical Chinese doings--late as usual. All of them started to come after 7pm. Was really excited to see everyone arriving one by one, not knowing who's bound to come. In the end, 13 of us came and had a great time. Had received some presents from them when they were coming gradually which is something I've not expected, thanks guys. Had received a terrible news from someone, stating that J might transfer to induk next year. Was so shocked to hear the news. I don't want anyone to leave our class so easily.They just can't leave us all anymore, we are all like a family. J, you are NOT PERMITTED to leave us all!!! We were divided into 2 groups: 1 eater, 1 gentle, haha. We did a lot of silly things there. For eg: frying an egg on the BBQ plate, trying to fry a crab,beating egg in the steamboat soup and letting it burnt the underneath which spoiled the whole soup, making it smells 'nice', burning plastic cups,burning food, kept changing the aluminium foil...Everyone were trying their best to stuff as much food down as they can. Making their money worthwhile. Cat & YC did not seem to stop eating. They were enjoying their food so much. While the others were quite lazy to cook or something. They don't seem to be full but they sat there looking at the food for quite a long time..haha...Then started eating again...^^ Then we this bunch of camera-shoot lovers started to take picture with each other. We snap quite a no. of pics actually. Even asked the worker there to help us snap some shots. Haha...Went back one by one after that. Had a loud good byes to those who are leaving early. Am very full now. Sleepy at the same time. Was very happy that all of them came to help celebrate me and Boon's B'day. Happy Belated Birthday to Ah Boon. THANKS A MILLION TO Jacky, Lemon, Ah Boon, Exuan, YC, Charmain, Ling, Cat, Tofu, Biscuit, Hau & my bro,Hsoon for willing to come celebrate for us. Thank you all so so much. I had enjoyed my tme there and appreciate the efforts all of you had put in. Hope to have days like this someday more often.

Smooth...

Band practice today. Outdoor today. Ran rounds. It was quite fun. Saw the Girlguides running rounds too. Their stamina were great. Can say even better then some boys. They ran I think >10 BIG rounds plus shouting commands at the same time and don't even seemed to be tired. Am happy that we had received our new score. Its for exam use as we'll be having a small exam for all the players to test their standards. Am anxious to get my hands on it!!!

Went KL later. Mum & Dad were being so good to me which made me feel that I'm very blissful. It always caught me that I'm a lucky girl. We were like a happy family when we went there. Picking up my dear sis...The happiest trip to KL I can say...haha....I LOVED them SO MUCH!!!! Muakz....

Tomorrow is a busy day for me. Having a meeting, hanging out with friends. Will not be able to clean my room as planned. Yiiksss....

Sis just can't seem to put her thumbs away from her phone. Not even a second. Once she starts, theres no turning back. Walao...Even I ask her something, she can seem to hear a word I say. And then keypad clicking sound is kinda annoying. Sometimes I wonder how can anyone face the phone for so long, daily routine. Pressing the same words over and over and over again. Sad...haha

Shocking Day

Am very happy rite now. Just received to calls which kinda blow me away. 1st, J called me and asked me whether I'm free to go out to celebrate for me n Boon. Am so shocked as this is actually the first time he called me and that he is actually asking me out. He's soo CUTE!!! Can't express my feelings now. somehow thinking that I'm so lucky to have friends like him... Hahahaha... Happing..

Then not long later, Ni called me. Am kinda expecting it as every year at this time, she'll definitely call me, and Yi hinted me this morning. So I was happy that the call had finally reached. haha.... She too asked me whether I'm free to gather. Wao!! I imediately said yes and gave a date without even thinking through it. I was too happy to think about anything that time. Can't believe that there are somebody who remembers my Bday...haha...Still had not subsided from the calls incident. I'm so High now!!!

Haha...Meeting as usual, was happy that everything seemed to go on well. Followed my to to pay some bills. Was so amazed that there are actually drive-in counter here in Malaysia to pay bills. I always thought that only other countries have these type of services. Never Malaysia. And now I had seen it. I suddenly felt that M'sia is really a great country. Feeling patriotic now. MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

We having informal meeting...Everyone is serious...


Even the monitor lizard wanted to join us, but loose its way back then^^

haha...Reached home after that. I began my moviethon. I watched 2 movies straight. To be actual, its 1 1/2. The first movie I watch is Japanese movie-Swing Girls. The reason I said I watched 1 1/2 show is because I had already watched the 1st part of the show the other day. Its about a bunch of students who had been a replacement for the school brass band and started learning about music and band just to skip classes. They later posseses LOVE to the instruments they had touched and wanted to play more music. They find ways to get their own instruments, learnt Jazz and later formed a Big Band Jazz. Its really funny and entertaining!!! This was my 3rd time watching this show and I'm still all over it. This show ROCKS!!! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED~~

Imediately after that, I watched another Japanese movie 《在世界的中心呼唤爱》. Its a romantic sad Love Story as the heroin died in the end. Its very touching but I still preferred to it. My second time watching it and it still is haunts me as people DO tend to forget those who had already left us. But the show is pretty good if you come to understand it...haha...

Anyway, after watching 《在》 I felt quite down the whole afternoon as this is the side-effect of watching sad movies. I can't seem sleep well. Something suddenly struck me then. I realized something which I had done been wrong before. And now, I finally decided. I would like to change myself. Being dedicated to what I'm doing now (the things I'm doing for my societies). No more grumbling and doing things unwillingly. I must consider myself LUCKY as I get to do all this and not everyone does. Time don't stop nor turn back. There's not much time left for me to do anything else except to do my best. I want my secondary life to be memorable. I started joining many clubs to enjoy and have fun. I might as well end it the same way too!!! Maybe extra work do come in the way sometimes. But I'm sure it will all pay off. Haha...Feeling better now. I wondered why it took me so long to realize this. How foolish I'm...^^ It was kinda bothering me then. But I'm ok now....Will do my very best in everything willingly. No more UNFAIR JOB for me!!!! haha...

Am chasing the new series 《萤火虫的梦》。 It looks kinda nice today when I watched it. t Will be looking forward to watch it again tomorrow. haha...

God must be a painter. Why else would we have so many colors?

~Alicia (played by Jennifer Connelly) in A Beautiful Mind

Laughing Day...

Went for a meeting AGAIN today. And it gone pretty good today. Haha, am knida happy that I need not write anything in the whole meeting. Not even a single word(except those which needed to take note la). No minutes for me this time...Hahahahahahhahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I didn't even take any notice in the whole meeting, just sitting down there cracking jokes, fooling around. Had kinda good time actually.^^ (Ya, I'm like that despite my normal 'serius serius' routine...There's nothing to be surprised at ^_^)
Later, I witness some everyday lives of others. It was kinda interesting actually getting to know whats actually going on in other people's lives. Can't seem to stop laughing the whole journey homw 'tumpanging' Majorette's car. I went hahahahahahahahohohahahahohahhaah....Non-stop. Majorette must be very high today as she herself can't seemed to stop either....Enjoying the whole trip back home.^^ I saw the same act in majorette and her sis as though me and my sis is whenever one of us wants the other to do something. I will go all mushy mushy...keep on pressing on her, thonthing her to do something and she will try her best to put out what was in my mind. And I'll beg her soo much, treating her which goes like:" if you don't....I'll....." sort of thing and she goes like:" ...I don't want!! I .....Uh..Whatever...." kind. Haha...It felt kinda amazing that these kinda things actually runs in every family. haha...

Am relieved that I get naps whenever I want, as long as I like now. Its actually kinda torturing waking up 6am in the morning even on holidays. I just can't get enough rest!!! Haha...But knowing that I can get meself all wrapped up in my warm and cozy bed as long as I want after everything's over made everything worth while...^^Ahhhh....Sweet...

Am having good appetites now a days. Don't seem to be satisfied eating just 1bowl of rice. 2 is just right but not filling yet. HAd been eating a lot these days and is worried about getting obesed. Keep resisting from food. I actually LOVED eating. But am kinda picky in some sense. Actually limiting myself from it for some reason, trying my best not to eat soo much.Luckily, YJ encouraged me and made me changed my mind. Don't stop eating!!! We live to eat!!! was what she said ...hahaha..Thanks gal, I realized that not eating means losing the main luxury of life!!! haha...Am having my appetite again....Wanna munch something now...

Taiwan is having winter now. It must be very cold compared to here. So, please take good care, ya , my dear friend. Don't catch a cold, ok??

Bible Quote of the Day:
Ephesians 6:1-2
Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. Honour thy father and mother; which is the first commandment with promise

夜了...

～已经夜了，不知不觉假期的第一个星期也过了。坐在爸爸车厢里,静静的听着悠闲的音乐，渐渐地沉睡了。睁开双眼，望着暗暗的天空感觉有点悲伤、空虚。我姐回了，又只剩下爸妈和我了。回想起今早所发生的一切一切，心不禁的感到有点酸痛。我又来了，不断重复自己那愚蠢的行为了。怎么改也改不掉呢？
～我，累了、睡了、不想懂了。反复地问问自己幸福吗？而答案始终还是同一句：我很幸福！至少比起其他人，我幸福多了。但，为什么那时那刻我一点也感觉不到幸福呢？幸福跑点了吗？好矛盾好矛盾。能够和姐相处的时刻我很确定的，我很开心，尽管是短暂的。
现在的我，有点不舍，不舍得身边的其中一个人又要离开了，等一阵子才能再见。寂寞、孤单是这样的吗？
～看见了一些人的真实面目，听见了某些人真实心声，才发现。。。原来金钱在生活中真的扮演着个相当坏角色。为了钱，有的人不顾一切、为了钱、有的人出卖友谊、为了人人所谓的——生活下去，有人不惜一切伤害他人，为了钱，也有的因此丧失生命。我能不赞同这一句话吗？：金钱是所有罪恶的根源...许多许多人只为了活得更好，把自己原有的一切给丢弃了。我厌恶这一切、受不了人人如此的行为。但我不知自己为何有这样的想法。心里一直都有数，明知现代人，没了金钱的却是活不了...没了钱也活不下去，但心里还是促藏着这一切，反复地问自己：人，为何如痴无知，如痴笨拙？？我，已不想懂了，只能静静的享受着夜晚的清静...

Not My Day

I screwed up again. I always screwed up. I'm born a spoiler, a problem maker to everyone. Always regretting for what I've done. What can I do right??? Making everyone unhappy, worrying for me. They have their own worries and I'm here adding more to them. Haiz, why am I like that?? Feeling really bad for all I've said and done. Please forgive me for all I've done. Please..Please...Please....

It really felt good to finish some house chores. Am happy that I can help my mum to do somethings. She worked all day long cleaning, cooking, weeding, not to mention her own school work. Can imagine how tired she is. And my dad in the other hand has many problems in his work and yet still spends time with us, ensuring we get what we needed. And sis, she's so tired traveling up and down. Subsequently studying, still gotta follow us wherever we go gotta show her 'happy' face for us to prevent us from worrying. Pity her somehow. And in the end, I'm the only one grumbling about how tough is my life, how it sucked. Never actually understood what in going on with others'. Everyone has their own problems, worries, me here thinking that how simple is ....life and how easy is....life. I'm such a loser thinking about it. Ahhhhh.......................I'm such a loser!!!!

Am falling in love with Star, the theme song for 娱协奖，a Malaysia award giving ceremony for all chinese artist. Can't stop thinking about it. Its not actually very catchy but I pretty much like it. Here's the song.

Its See Ying's birthday today. Hope that she had a great day .
Wanna attend church tomorrow. Can't miss it again. Really really gotta work hard from now onwards. Gambateh!!!

Bible Verse of the Day:

1 Corinthians 13:4-13
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Happy Children's Day!!!

Its World's Children Day!!! Happy Children's Day to all. Lets celebrate this special day with joy and laughter!!!

Here's a little bit about the celebration as I myself did not know what's its purpose on the 1st place.=>=>=>=>=>=>=>=>=>

Universal Children's Day

20 November

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By resolution 8361(IX) of 14 December 1954, the General Assembly recommended that all countries institute a Universal Children's Day, to be observed as a day of worldwide fraternity and understanding between children. It recommended that the Day was to be observed also as a day of activity devoted to promoting the ideals and objectives of the Charter and the welfare of the children of the world. The Assembly suggested to governments that the Day be observed on the date and in the way which each considers appropriate. The date 20 November, marks the day on which the Assembly adopted the Declaration of the Rights of the Child, in 1959, and the Convention on the Rights of the Child, in 1989.

In 2000 world leaders outlined Millennium Development Goals (MDGs) – which range from halving extreme poverty to halting the spread of HIV/AIDS and providing universal primary education, all by the target date of 2015. Though the Goals are for all humankind, they are primarily about children. UNICEF notes that six of the eight goals relate directly to children and meeting the last two will also make critical improvements in their lives. (MDGs, UNICEF.)

The main purpose of the celebration is to create awareness of the responsibilities of all members of society especially parents, private and public agencies have to protect the rights and the future of children as well as to enable members of the public to appreciate the need to uphold the rights and dignity of children in accordance with the rights as accorded to them by the Convention on the Rights of the Child.

I hereby wish all CHILDREN A HAPPY HAPPY DAY!!! Enjoy yourselves!!!
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Went for my holiday duties today. It went better than I had expected. Can see that the members had a good time, I think. Was pretty relieved that everything went well. No complaints, no beh-song business. Its good. The only thing is that my time planning is as usual....BAD.. Am happy that the members gave full cooperation. Thanks guys. Regretted that I did not brought my Lumix with me. It will be something which I would like to remember though its just a small thing.

Later, I went loitering in town with mum. Went walking from place to place. Then suddenly, it began to rain quite heavily. Had to walk in the rain as we forgot to bring umbrellas. Its fun walking under the rain...It felt like I'm 4 again...Used to play in the rain. Rushing out of the house whenever it rains...And never seemed to get sick.

Am exhausted when I reached home. After finishing some things. I went to sleep with me relaxing classics. When I woke up 2 hrs later, I still feel like a dead fish, it doesn't feel like I had even sleep before. Damn tired now. Can't wait to hop into my bed now. Gotta have a good night's sleep now. Its another one of my 'days' tomorrow....Nitez everyone.

Relaxing...

Did nothing specially today. Just a plain, nice, relaxing holiday for mua...Am very delighted to spend me whole day doing things I like to do. Playing my violin, watching tv, eating all day long. And the most of all, I get to online as long I want!! Haha...Its great spending some time doing things I like, not worrying soo much. What a relaxing day I have. But its only gonna last for a day. Tomorrow I'm back to the waking up early routine. Having my holiday duty...Its kinda drag going back to school during sweet holidays like this if you ask me. Hehe..Though its kind of my idea doing it the first place. haha... This holiday duties had borthered me a lot these few days. This is my first time organizing duties in the holidays. Am kinda worried and frustrated about it actually.

Nothing specific to blog today. Just that I had ran through some videos about the songs sang as a tribute for the Si Chuan Victims. They were really very unfortunate. Pity all of them, losing familiy members, losing their homes, losing everything. Some became disabled after the disaster, some became semi-paralyze, some gotta live a tough life after that. All the bad things that happen often make me wonder why. Am kinda lost sometimes wondering why did God let all this happen. Still can't seem to understand why did HE let this happen. But I certainly do believe that everything that happens, it happens for a reason. Thats what Reid from Criminal Minds like to say. And I totally believe it. So guys do lend a hand to those who are in need. Do help contribute as much as you can to help all of them. Though Si Chuan Earthquake was months ago, but I certainly do believe that there are still many people out there craving for some help, struggling to live.

SO GUYS, DO HELP THOSE WHO NEEDS HELP, EVEN IF ITS JUST A SMALL THING. WE CAN REALLY MAKE A DIFFERENCE !!! GO FOR IT WITHOUT DOUBT, AND YOU WILL ALSO FEEL A LOT BETTER TOO~

That's all I wanna say. Have a good day to all...

p.s. Pineapple is departing to Taiwan today. Hope that she will reach there safely. Happy Holidays to everyone else too~

John Baptiste Moliére:
It is not only for what we do that we are held responsible, but also for what we do not do.

第十届书香国际中文书展

Went to 书香国际书展 with a bunch of pals in the Mines. If was really funny. I laugh my way there and back. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah...........................Can't help it. They were really funny!!!

We went down with a KTM and had sacrificed our seats for a pragnant lady. Had even made friends with an auntie who was going to the same destination as us and we made her our 'tour guide'. But in turned out that our 'tour guide' went missing and we had to make our way ourselves. I appoint myself as the 'tour guide' of the group and took the 'tourists' around.We walked along the main road acting like tourists taking pictures (At least for me la...).

A bunch of 'tourists' walking around...


We aimed to cross the road using the overhead bridge which seemed far away.
Do you see the overhead bridge??


After that we finally found the under ground tunnel and reached the Mines safely.

The Underground tunnel.

Went had a little of hide-and-seek as we search for a place to eat. It was kinda funny having friends being somehow 'missing' in a shopping complex. Haha...After had our wonderful brunch, we headed straight to the book fair. 'Rynn Lim' was everywhere guiding us to the right way to the convention centre haha...10 of us spread into groups as some of us were excited to explore the book fair. Was kinda let down the book fair wasn't as big as I had imagine .There were many people came here for the same purpose--in search for books!!! I walked around with HY and can't seem to find the thing we want--English storybooks. There were only Chinese I meant HEAPS of THEM!!! Only MPH booth has a little amount of Eng books. Was kinda disappointed actually. But we did managed to buy somethings there. There was also a 扯铃 competition there. All the participants were primary students and had an So-so performance.



While both of us were watching the performances, a young pretty lady came and asked us some questions to promote a corse or something. Was kinda shocked actually as a stranger approached us just like that. Had simply answered some of the questions and handed out some broucher. The lady seemed nice actually and had left as she felt that she was interrupting us . Just when we were to leave the stage, another guy who is a collegue of hers came asking the same questions. I started laughing as the lady was standing right beside me as he came approaching us. He went like this:

He: 你们还是学生吗？(Handing out the broucher)
Me: (staring at the lady beside me) Hahahahah....Hahaha....Laughing out out...
The lady smiled.
He: 着么你笑，看这个先 (means the broucher)，不要笑....
Me: Hahahahahahah...hahahahahah.....Ahahahaha....

It was really funny as the lady was also standing there which I think she knew what was happening. I laughed like mad, like a CRAZY gal!!! OMG, I'm really getting nuts.
Later, we exited the Book fair together to find a place to rest with some of the others. We had kinda finished walking the whole book fair in a short period of time. All of us met at McD and had our meals there again. Went walking around again and stopped in another place to eat again. Bought tickets to take a cruise ride to the jetty near the KTM. As we waited for the cruise to arrive, we took pictures there like a bunch of tourist again. We were acting as if its the 1st time being in the Mines. Haha...Later, I& YX did a very embarrassing thing. We went around to look for the 'Rynn Lims' to take a pic with him. We actually ran round as if we were playing Amazing Race of sort. Can't seemed to find any of them as we search from floor to floor and had found 'him' eventually. We stood by his side and took pics. Its kinda embarrassing as all the passerbys tends to stare at both of us. We coundn't help it except to laugh. Hahahaha.... Took more pics as we boarded the cruise. And again acting as if we were on tour again. Even the other passenger laughed at our funny behavings. Haha...Enjoyed the ride. Though it was very short, it was enjoyable.

Boating under the tunnel...Hollow....


Group picture after the ride.


Took the KTM back to Seremban. We saw our 'tour guide' again when we were at the station. What a coincidence. There we also many people as we boarded the KTM. Did many funny things and chit chatted along our way home.

Was kinda pity as YJ can't join us. She'll will be leaving to Taiwan tomorrow. Hope she will have a great trip there. Sorry ya, but we didn't eat the famous Roti Canai...haha...

It was a great trip. Was very happy that I went and had a real great time with my friends. Hope that we'll had more trips like this in the future. My legs was kinda worn out when I reached home. Haha...

Sis is having her exams tomorrow. Hope she'll do well this time. Jia You!!! To all SPMers, Good Luck too in your exams!!! I just can't seem to stop eating these few days. Will become a big fat gal soon. （'o')<- Fatty Me.. Hehe...

Mark Victor Hansen:
Dedicate yourself to the good you deserve and desire for yourself. Give yourself peace of mind. You deserve to be happy. You deserve delight.

1st day of Holidays...

Haha...Its my 1st day of true holiday. Had been up quite late. 9.oo am to be exact. Started eating my yummy breakfast watched TV just like old times. Hehe.... Then I tried out my internet connection to see whether or not it works and it did. So I started chasing out what I had missed for the past few days. Can't bare to leave my computer as I'm afraid that I can't go online after that. After having quite enough of onlining, I went cleaning my room. I washed..wiped...scrubbed...Swosshh....bang....swept....and bye bye dust. bye bye...
My room is squickly clean again. Haha...So happy!!! Had a long relaxing bath after that. Ahhhhh......

Later, I had my whole afternoon facing the computer watching many interesting clips. Which I was quite amazed by what people can do. Here is one of them.

Taiwan BBoys Airstyle 2006

This is the same group which I had mentioned earlier. They are really fantastic though there are some moves which has synchronize problems.

Then I watched 《爱在你左右》 。 There was a scene which was quite fascinating as a man proposed to a girl who he just met when they are going to be abupted by robbers. He simply slipped in a ring to her finger which he prepared to give to his girlfriend who he just broke up with recently. The girl who he proposed to is his tour giude and she had also just broke up with her boyfriend during her tour. Its really funny watching this scene. I really makes you think whether or not things like this really happen in the real world. The guy looks pretty funny. He is 黄启铭， a singer and Apple 洪乙欣 who is also a singer. They are pretty cute.

CM is having her BK today. Hope that she did well. No, she did well. I must say. All her efforts pay. Yeah! Happy news!!! Fann Wong and Christopher Lee is finally getting married!!!Hooray!!! Its time they share their lives together. Haha.....Congratulations!!!!

Am kinda excited about going to the 书香 book fest in the Mines tomorrow. Hope to see many books which I like. So sorry that some of my friends cannot make it. Hope they will enjoy themselves too.

Yeah!! Gilmore Girls is back. Had been waiting long for it. Can't wait to watch it.



Thats all for today. Must get some sleep now.Happy Holidays to all. Toodles!!!

Yeah!!!

Haha...can finally blog. My stupid connection seemed to face some problems these few days. So relieved that I can finally online now...Wahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There's actually many things that I want to blog about so lets make it go day by day. This will be very long blog. So BEWARE guys as this maybe time consuming....^^

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14 November 2008

Its the last day of school. The last day of my Form 4 school life. Came to school feeling quite busy as there are many things which needs last minute settling. And it turned out kinda hectic too. Ran some errands, took some pics, and was busy doing a card for our dear Miss Choong whom is retiring this year end. And this is how the card turned out.


Brought my Lumix to take some snapshots with Miss Choong and some friends. But was disappointed as Miss Choong was not in that day. So, instead we took some pictures with our dear Miss Chiew. Sad that many 4Mers are not very surpportive that day. Many of them didn't want to take pics with all of us.



As usual library has many unfinished business and I again screwed many things up. Feeling useless again. Seriously, I can't seem to get things right. Its my gift to screw things up I guess. Went to main school. Yes, again. To attend a post Morten of PBC's Farewell. Wasted my whole afternoon there. Wasted so much time sitting there doing nothing. Haiz...But can't blame anyone as it was my own choice to go there the first place. Was totally wiped out when I reached home. But luckily I had my 'junk' to cheer me up. Watched 《转角·遇到爱》 which was my second time watching it. AnTeng Feng, a famous pianist in the show said something which reminded me of someone and something I had been worried for a long time. He was refering to his beloved sister who had left him.
" ...she told me once before she died. Kade, you must keep on playing the music. I'll bring my favourite purple roses and watch your performance...I'll always look after you...even from the heaven..."

"But I'm soo afraid(referring to himself) . As time goes by...her picture in my mind wiil get blurred...And I'm just soo afraid that one day I'll forget everything..."

I had been worrying about this issue for a long time. That I will forget someone which had been with me before but now had gone to another place. It really creeps me out sometime when I think of it. Forgetting someone who was once there and now is not. People tends to forget somethings even though its something really important to them. Yikks...Why do things like this happen??

Anywayz. I went to sleep early that day as there will be practice the next day.

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15 November 2008

Went to band practice that day. Missed the times practicing together. Missed hearing the brasses sound. haha. Feeling as if it had be years since I last went for a practice ya? Practice went well. Got new score to practice. Yippee!!! PBC debating competition was also held that day. Didn't get to watch the contest that day. Hope that everything went well la. As to Sie Mein, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

After reaching home, I watched TV the rest of the day...Am very happy that I got to watch 《少年特攻队》，《宫》 and 《超级偶像》。 Was lucky to watch Air Style perform. They are really great. Liked 张芸京 from 《超级偶像》. She's the best!!! Am routing for her.



Watched Little Brother later. Had been looking forward to watch it. Haha..
The show is about a little brother who has a brother who has a tumour in his brain and realizing how much he loves his brother despite bullying his elder brother. I was in tears as it was quite touching. Hope that you guys will give it a watch. Its quite nice.

Slept early too as it was quite tiring just watching TV...haha...

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16 November 2008

Didn't went to church as we went to Jaya one to visit my sister. It had been two weeks since I last saw her. She is still the same old gal but with more pimples la..haha...Ate a plesant lunch with my family and had a walk in Jaya 33. Nothing much though. Except that the peopke there speaks fluent English.Haha... Saw a mother who speaks with British slang teaching her baby son
how to speak in the elevator. Its really amazing seeing scenes like this. The baby was really cute.
Haha...Later, we saw a little gal being attached with a handy rope. She looks as if she is going to bungee jump. The father was pulling her around as she herself was running around. My sis was shocked to see this. She said that the little gal was being pulled aroung like a dog. But I didn't think like that. I think that its just one of the alternative to make sure that a child will not go missing despite running around. We went home after having cendol with my sis and sending her back to her house.

Ate fish porridge for dinner. Watched Phua Chu Kang after that. Was quite mad with my connection as I had tried many times to go online but failed. So, I slept early again. Can finally sleep as long I want. No more waking up early. Haha...YIPPEE!!!!!!!! Holidays, here I come!!!

Oh ya, almost forgot that its Majorette's and Zi Jian's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! May you both be happy always.

Scooby Dooby Doo 2...

Scooby had been one of a character which I somehow find very enjoyable as I had been watching it since forever. He and Shaggy had always been a mess to Mystery Inc. In which Fred, Velma and Daphne had always been looking out for them. Just finished watching Scooby Doo 2 - Monsters Unleashed. Was excited when I first know that it will be televised. Its kinda funny watching Scooby and Shaggy saying silly things and eating all the time...








Yeah! Had finally registered to join the camp in KL. Haha...Pursued my dad to let me go. Must tell myself not to get too excited now. More excited= more expectations=higher chance of disappointment. But am not doubting whether I'm making the right decision to go. As I also want to go to a concert which will be held few days after. In this coming holidays, I had my own schedule quite full and that there are still many things I had not listed down yet. It will be a hectic holidays I think. Talking about concert, there are actually many concerts going on this two months. One of them is the performance of the Lord Of The Rings songs which will be performed by MPO. Its really tempting me. But the ticket price is killing which had held me back. Really am longing to go watch a MPO performance before I graduate. It will be a MUST then. Anyone with me? Whoever wants to join me are welcomed. Intake starts NOW...^^

The post-mortem of Band's Farewell Gathering had reminded me of what had happened last ear which took us 3 days to finished it. But this time they finished their post-mortem in only 2 hours ,Woo.... But to tell the truth, this year's Farewell is better than last year's. Except the fact that they made all of us waited for a long long time. It somehow made me wonder why did I did so many wrong when I'm organizing the same function. And now, I'm still making the same mistakes again. I can't seem to do anythong right. Like a simple thing about a letter, I can miss so many details and forgot to tell them what needs to be done. Haiz...Why am I like that?

School is like a drag. Everyday go to school now to wait for time to past. Plus, I can't seem to leave library. I had to set my feets into the library everyday now, just to make sure time passes fast. And also to make sure everything goes well la ... OMG!!! Just found out that my notebook which had everything important written on it is missing!!! Ahhhh!!!! I can't live without it!!! Too many important things I need is inside!!! How??? Is it in the library??? Of it fell off at the main school?? No, this can't be happening. It can't be. NOOOOOOOOOO....................

Sorry...Thank you...

Again, a normal school day for me. Damn tired now as I slept only about 2 hours last night. Am very exhausted right now. Still thinking about what had I done today. Whats wrong and whats right. Things to-be-done are still wandering around my mind, searching for its place to be. Am quite happy that my dad finally allow me to join the camp on December. Had not join something which involves students around the country. Am excited about it. Hope that it wouldn't disappoint me.^^

Mum still has many things to finish. But useless old me can only sit beside her asking:“ What can I help you??" over and over and over again. Can't seem to make myself useful. There many things I want to do but it remains undone as I'm a VERY VERY LAZY GAL!!! How can someone be as lazy as me??? I'm worst than a pig. Felling damn lazy right now. Wanna sleep through the whole tomorrow la...I wanna sleep!!! But cannot, you still got clothes to iron, Minutes to type...blah...blah...Really sorry for being such an idiot here.

Today I realized that I had been such a polite gal all this while. I can't seem to stop saying SORRY...THANK YOU to everyone. I often say these to everyone although I'm doing something for others or I'm not doing anything wrong. But these words were uttered just like that. It had became a habit I think. I didn't realized it until my friends told me about it. Ya, I really am a FREAK. But one thing I'm sure is that I always feel that I'm the one who does every single wrong. Always having guilty feeling in whatever I do. I mean thats the only reason why I like to say sorry ma....Haiz...Gotta stop crapping!!!


Anyway, still feeling kinda guilty for not spending time with my friends. Enjoyed my time chatting with one of them today. Found out that everyone really had to face hard times one a while in life. We can't help it. Life is just like that...It SUCKS sometimes. Also feeling guilty that I didn't really talked to him today. Don't know why am I feeling like this. Feel as if I'm treating him badly but actually all I did was nothing. Haiz....it complicating....

1st day of SPM. Hope that it gone well. GOOD LUCK again to all SPMers...

Must crawl to bed now. MUST GO TO SLEEP!!! NOW!!! Nitez to all...

Jim Rohn:
You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself. That is something you have charge of.

Ka..Cha...

Everything had gone quite blur blur. Went to school bringing me ' LOVED ONE' --Lumix
Haha...finally feeling happy again as I had been wanting to bring my Lumix for the past few days. So, luckily today many people also brought their cameras to take pictures with their friends. haha..

Took many pictures with some seniors and friends. And also helped many people to take pictures as well. Very happy indeed. ^^ I really LOVE taking pictures!!! Took pictures with Mr. S too which is our History teacher for this year. He is leaving school after this Friday. Will miss his class as he is really a pretty good teacher. Many students praised that they score pretty good results just by listening to his lessons. GOOD LUCK Mr. S and all the best in the future!!!

Class 4M with Mr.S Too bad many 4M-ers are not in the pic...


Do, Re, Mi (me), Fa, So... Haha...


5M leng zai-s....



After suffering from the highness of taking pictures, I saw a friend whom I don't actually know very well. Didn't see her for a long time. Was kinda surprised that she still remembers me and was somehow looking for mef as she came here. Was very happy that we exchanged address. Can finally keep in contact through the net already!!! Yeah!!!

Was in the library for the whole day after that. Many things still can't be finished. As usual, my life in the library is kinda hectic. Many people go in and out of the Workroom, knocking, asking questions etc. Is getting used to this kind of life. But somehow still feeling uneasy deep down inside. Maybe its because of what had happened last Friday. Haiz...I'm feeling kinda scared whenever see 'them' I don't know why actually, but I still am uncomfortable confronting them.
CRAPS...I'm thinking about the incident again...
DON'T THINK about it DON'T THINK about it...
Whenever I'm in my library...things doesn't seem to get lesser but instead, it gets more and more. Too many things to worry about. Teacher was like :" Hey .... Remember to do this....Plan all of this well ah...." I can't quite remember everything she had told me. Trying hard to do my best anyway. Don't know where my strength come from. Being able to face soo much things everyday, haha... Maybe it comes from my dear friends who had always been with me. Really don't know how to show my gratitude to them. THANKS A MILLION, PALS!!!

Got my From 5 books. All 17 books. Really heavy. HAHA....But I'm feeling really bad and selfish that I didn't tell my dear bro about it. I forgot that he didn't know about it!!! How could I be soo selfish??? I really HATE being like this. I really hope that he will forgive me...I'm REALLY REALLY sorry!!!

Came back home early. No need to stay back or whatever. Ate, watched TV, sleep through the afternoon...wake up...watched TV...Talking on the phone....Talk...Talk...Eat... Watch TV...And here I'm.^^

Was happy to talk to my dear DEAR just now. Feeling kinda bad that I spent little time with her. But is happy to talk to her. Gotta spare more time for my friends. They are always soo understanding that I have work to do and have no time for them. So, they don't want to disturb me. Have to change their minds. MUST SPARE MORE TIME!!! And also feeling bad as if I'm treating him bad. I don't know why I think like that but really would want to treat him better. Hope that he won't think soo much la...

Great news: Grandma's phone is ok, Sis's classmate is back to school, Robert Reagan is well.
Bad news: Jane Hogan is sick, no news bout *him, many friends are facing problems, many unfinished business around...haiz...

Hope that everything will go on fine. SPM had arrived. All da Best to all Form 5-s. May God be with all of you!!!

This is something to share. Hope that it can help some of you who are facing problems...

Mark Victor Hansen:
Dedicate yourself to the good you deserve and desire for yourself. Give yourself peace of mind. You deserve to be happy. You deserve delight.

Bertrand Wilbertforce:
Always direct your thoughts to those truths that will give you confidence, hope, joy, love, thanksgiving, and turn away your mind from those that inspire you with fear, sadness, depression.

Plesant dinner

Went to the 中秋晚会慰劳宴 just now. About 30 of us had our dinner together. It was quite funny that we whole bunch of students like having a tour around Seremban. With little A Chat as our 'tour guide' haha...Except that she did not have a flag on her hand..lolz..
When we reached the restaurant, it was crowded. Many people there. We guys like going to tour entered the restaurant, we caught many people's attention as we're like from kampung with whole big bunch of people going there to eat steak..haha...
All of us had our dinner which was so-so for me only. I ate steak which was better than this.I ate Black Pepper Chicken with Iced Lemon Tea (my favourite...But its kind sour)

Pic of my dinner， Black Pepper Chicken ..Looks YUMMY rite?



Great Iced Lemon Tea...Sorry ya Lemon...^^


Pic of me & cute little Yi...Friends Forever!!!


All of us took pictures after that. It was fun actually. Though there are some people which I don't quite know. After dinner, some of them went FC to play DOTA...Haiz..boys are boys...

Pic of 'Chan Wa tour' ( Few people are not in the pic, soo sad...)


Nothing specific which I want to blog today. This maybe caused by what happened yesterday. Its kinda sad thinking about it again, so I chose not to blog about it...Sometimes I really wonder how come some people can live in this world with some bad attitude which I find some sort of annoying...Anywayz I don't want to think about it again...It still gets on my nerves whenever I think of it...Haiz..

Thanks anyway for all my friends who worried about me...I'm aokay now. Don't have to worry for me, I'm doing just fine.

Still struggling on how to do her card. And what am I supposed to give ML next week.
Plus what am I supposed to do in school next week. And whether or not I should attend the camp and the concert...Haiz...Many things still going on my mind now...Phew...Hope also that Goh will have a safe trip to Hong Kong tomorrow. Have fun, ya.

Thats all for today. Looking forward for church tomorrow. Happy for my 2 new friends who had just started to blog. Hope to see more interesting posts in the future.

Bible Verse of the day:
Philippians 4:8
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever, is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, let your mind dwell on these things.

Yesterday, A Not-So-Good Day

I'm up so early today. This is caused by my too tiredness as I slept at around 7pm yesterday. Don't know why I'm soo tired leh. Maybe its because that soo many things happened yesterday. Kinda disappointed of my own class yesterday. Though I still like them all. But most of all, I'm pissed off of myself. How can I let all this things to my own class, in my ‘dear' library?? And somehow, I got the punishment I deserve. So everything is settled.

Am kinda relieve that there is someone willing to hear what-so-ever I wanna say. Thanks, my friend for listening my needs. Being there to help me. Also to dear Ah Boon. Thanks for understanding the situation. You're soo COOL!!! Haha...Despite the things you do to Lemon..^^

Sorry ya guys. Really sorry that we are not permitted to go to library starting from next year during free periods. Can't seem to change teacher's mind now. Really really sorry.

Some of 4M went for bowling competition this afternoon. Too bad I can't join in the fun as there is a meeting to attend. Yes, again. everyday gotta go back to main school for meetings. How pathetic. All my secondary life is filled with....ya, meetings. How 'nice'.

Damn heart broken that my Dear Liquid had been "rampased" by the prefects. How am I going to do my work??

Had to go main school again this morning. But changed my plans as there are too many UNFINISHED business in branch school. Gotta go back there later this afternoon. Haiz...

Here is another video clip about Darren Brown doing the 'One Inch Punch'
Felt that this is kinda interesting though. Haha...So, do enjoy watching it.


Time to go now. Gotta prepare for school now. Time is running short.

Bible verse of the day:
1 John 3:18 NRSV
Let us love, not in word or speech, but in truth and action

War

Its like going for war Yesterday...
Once I reached the war zone (library)....Plenty of boms comes for me...
Like they are aiming for me..It goes:'' Leader.....Leader...."
And knock, knock:'' Leader，我要拿Surat Kebenaran..." I'm in such a mess then. Kept on asking the guns to wait...Let me settle other things 1st only let the pull the trigger...Haha..
Even people who are just passer by also stop by to say Hi to me, giving me surprising 'presents' to be distributed. And I was like soo shocked about the amount of people who came looking for us leaders. There are soo many, and all the time I have been saying: “等下先” Really dislike situation like this.
After that, I heard that my NYG sub are arguing among themselves. WHAT THE HECK. Small things also canot do well how to do BIG things??Haiz..
Then just before schools ends, someone says his neck sufferd from pain or something...Which got be worrying. After that is my father...He Has soo much problems that he himself sometimes don't know what to do...Am worried for him and felt restless that I can't help him in anything. What can I do??Mum also has many things to worried about. My sis's classmate is very sick and my dear friend TJH is still not back yet. Library issues are like not enough to occupy me and now PBC has also some things to think about. How could my life become such a disaster. I sometimes don't understand. I seemed soo relaxed as if nothing bad happened or I have nothing much to worry about. But the truth is that I'm actually avoiding all of them. I don't seemed to find a better way out. Haiz...

He told me that I looked as if I have a lot of problems in which its kinda true. Sometimes its people like him who really sees whats bodering us which other people don't see. (THIS IS NOT A COMPLIMENT BUT A STATEMENT!) Hope that people won't misunderstand. Though some of you don't actually know what I'm saying.


Finally!! I'm glad that Obama finally won. He looks like someone trustworthy and keeps his promise. Really hope that he is like that in life. Also hope that the world will be more peaceful after he take over America. Gambateh! Obama!

Sharing...

This video is something I think that is really really true in sense of daily life...
Please finish watching the clip before proceeding...



Why do I think that its true?? What's true about the video?? must be the question which pop up on your mind after finish watching this...

I think that its true that people DO easily being influenced by the environment, by what they see and what the hear. This will affect their thinking also. And they themselves don't know about it. There are some people in my life who is that way. They think that everyone has one of something means that they had got to have one. They are already being influenced by the environment soo easily. People often want things that they see other people have wanting soo much to be like the other people just because they think that doing that something seemed great and fun. They don't actually think about the consequences of doing the 'something'. And just do what they like.Its kinda of a bad habit human beings use to have And I think that this will make humans think one kind which means everything the same & nothing creative.

Besides, Human beings as usual is kinda of 8 want la...(If you know what I mean). They always say things that they see on the surface and give out FALSE statement about the someone with other people just because they walk together. Why does it seems soo hard for human to understand that there are actually pure FRIENDSHIP in this world. I do believe 2 human who differ in gender can be pure friends want lo. Why must people like to say to good friends are a item??? Though I don't seem to mind it much as I'm already getting used to what people say behide my back, it sometimes seems to bother me a lot as the things they see are all illusion. Their mind set is kinda bad. Sometimes also don't know how to reply others who say awkward things to both me and my friend. Haiz...Sorry ya guys, foe talking such a useless thing for soo long...Hope that I didn't boared you to death...(~o~) Haha..

Yesterday, did 2 hours of replacements duties. Feeling kinda relieved right now as many work had been done. Library might as well be my place to concentrate ... Am also happy that there are still people cared about their duties and some are actually kinda hardworking and responsible.
Many people are not going to school leh...4M food class will once again become a quiet place. haha... Actually I am not joking that we are actually food class. Its kinda true in sense that many people are actually called by food names...Though some are called by other funny names like animals and funny nick, we are ONE BIG HAPPY food class...Haha...Am really happy to be part of the team. They are very funny entertaining everyone with their food sense of humour...I can't stop laughing everytime I'm with them...I really like all the food in 4 'Makan' class...(I gave this nick myself).

Just now I fell asleep while I was blogging a couple hours ago which is a yesterday. So,very sorry if some of the post having weird timing as its now is already Wednesday.

Having meetings these two days. Really hope that I would not fall asleep during then. Am craving for more sleeping time now...Oooooooeehhhh....Tired as usual. Am trying to adapt what Biscuit taught me about the time management thinggy...Really hope that I can make it. Thanks anyway for telling me all those time management things. Figuring how to decorate Miss Choong's card. I don't have any single clue about it!!!

Yesterday, I had a chat with my dear friend Yi. Am actually quite happy that SOMEONE do care about me. Asking me about my problems telling me what she if facing and so on. Sometimes its really nice having someone who understands the situation. Though it can't be solved if still feels good after sharing your problems with someone you actually trust. Everyone should try it. I mean sharing some of your problems with others. I know its kinda hard as its not easy to find people who listens and keeps it to themselves but there will be some exceptions in life. Enjoy life now as there will be lesser chance to in the future...Haha...
Have to prepare for school now..So will stop for now Bye!!

What I think...

Gotta make this snappy.Today is the day of my performance. Though its a small performance, it somehow seemed special to me. I performed in TBSC concert where it is a concert of my mum's kindergarten and small kids performs. I'm was 'one' of the performer and played some songs during the opening and closing. I SUCKED. I'm soo lousy, playing some wrong note throughout the songs. I was also soo scared that I might screw up on my 5 seconds solo. But that went ok. Was soo relieved that all this is over. I practically practiced twice before performing wihout any score and was kinda proud of myself for being able to do so-so. This was some kind of achievement for me.
haha. Though I can do better if I practiced enough, I was still happy that I joined the show. A good experience which I can remember practically my whole life. ^^

A picture of my mum n her fellow helpers with students of hers. The gal at the side is pretty right?
The concert was OK. It was kinda boring actually compared to last year. I don't know why I don't have the mood to smile during the whole show. I kept a SULKY look I think. Many little children was like: " why that Jie jie like that want, soo mad. I don't like her...." something like that. I didn't really played with any of them which breaks my earlier years of chain. Really don't know whats bothering me soo much. Haiz... Didn't took much photos either. This is due to my lacking of memory in my camera...ARRGH...Why didn't I delete more photos leh!!!But well, I wasn't in much of a mood in taking pictures anyway.

Yesterday, I was SOO tired. After leaving for Band's Farewell by 7 something, I came back only after 4 p.m. After that I took a few minutes nap and had to rush to cook nuggets for the gathering later that night. I came home after 11p.m. and had to go to sleep as I have to wake up quite early the next day for the concert.

The Farewell was quite good compared to last year's which was organized by my bach. Thumbs up for Form 3-s. They really planned well but somehow still lacking of something. Was disappointed that only two Junior representatives turned up for this event. Cheers for them. Juniors should come to events like this to know more about band. Anywayz I really admire the Form 3's talents and efforts a they only have 2 weeks to prepare.

A cute pic of Lemon in newspaper 'dress' and my group mates. He's soo CUTE!!!
Later that night, we went to city park to hold a gathering for our ex-s. The gathering had loose its purpose which was to have good time with the ex-s and spent more time knowing each other. But instead, we ended up chatting a little with many many others go and play with their own friends. And again, its kinda disappointing. We only played games with SOME ex-s which was fun and the other ex-s just sat down chatting among themselves no matter how many times we invite them to join us. Don't know they are like that. Haiz...I had missed my grandma's birthday dinner for this and had kinda regretted it. I meant a little. Somehow, deep down inside I think that I was a little happy that I joined them though.

Candle light word arrangement. Know what is it showing??
1 BAND 1 SOUND which is our band's slogan. Its soo pretty!!!

Thought that I'll miss the ex-s when they leave band but I didn't feel anything to tell the truth. We were mostly companions ONCE (some of us were committees toghther last year) and had been working together for the concert this year but I still felt nothing in the end of the gathering. At least for now.^^ Sad, don't you think??

I like my triple ex-s very very much. They were wonderful people. Inspiring me each and every practice. They were really really 'diam sui' as we band members would say.haha... Now, I'm still being aspired by them through the things they say and do. Missed those days very much. Not to say that practices now is bad but is because I like having ex-s which REALLY cares and to be there for all of us. Thats my thought though. I didn't mean that ex-s now doesn't care but this is hust what I feel. Very sorry if I offended someone.

I was kinda moved by something that 1 of the ex mentioned yesterday. He was soo kine to help one junior to raise to A-Band( means senior band) that he came back everyday to school even when his mother passed away. He cried imeadiately after that. This was my first time seeing him cry. I was soo shock to hear the news. He had always been a happy-go-lucky guy, playing a part which made him making people think that he is soo relaxed and is free from troubles. I almost cried knowing that his mother is no longer with him now. I cannot imagine a life without my mother and will not bare if this happens to me. And now, he is going through all this at young age really don't know how he made through it. He must had gone through many many hard times that period of time. How can he become someone soo good like he is today?? He is one of the ex which I liked to most and admired what he is capable to do with his hands. He really deserves credits for all of this. THANKS a million ex-instrument committee for being who you are today and for all the efforts that you had done. Hope that you'll prosper in the future. Your mother will be very proud of you!!!

Still got Moral folio undone and needs to be passed up tomorrow. Gotta burn mid-night oil today, again. Haiz... Tomorrow another new and busy day for me. Hope to get to play with 4M-s again. Still hoping to see a glimps of my sick friend. Happy birthday to my cousin and to my friends. May all the BEST things happens to you all.

Crapping...

Farewell is about an hour away from now. Can still imagine what it feels like when its our turn to organize this Farewell last year. I was soo soo worried about everything and didn't really sleep that whole night...Erm..I don't even think that I had ever slept at all...I mean how can anyone sleep?? TWO Farewells going on the same day, same time and also same place(Main School). And the worst thing is having the same post for the two gatherings--Vice President. So, if its you, can you sleep??
So, this year is the Form 3's turn to do the job. And now, I worrying about our performance for the Form 5-s. Bringing along last year's failure, I'm suffering from some 'Kong Ju Gan' now. Can we pull this off this year?? Can we don't let the Form 5-s down this time?? I really don't know. Am hoping hard that everything goes well this year.

Yesterday morning was a DISASTER to me. Everything not done, have to be prepared for library's short meeting, Band and PBC's things waiting to be solved etc. Now, I can't imagine how I pulled it off. I've settled things that need to be settled by yesterday and also some which can be done later. Feeling a small achievement in me.^^ Though its like that, Still many many things waiting for me to finish. Haiz...letters, moral foilos, samples, planning activities etc. Don't know when can I finish them.
What is it with dogs, barking none stop in an early morning like now. Its really annoying la...Shh....
I wasn't really in class today. Missed playing with my friends. Hope to play with them next week.
Biscuit is going on with his '3rd mask' again. Would like to see how it is...
I'm really crapping so a lot. Sorry, can't help it. My hands cannot stop typing what my mind is thinking.
Oh, gosh, look at the time now.Gotta go now. Have to prepare for Band's Farewell Gathering...
I just ‘can't wait '...

What !?

Somebody told me something that was quite amusing just now.
She said something like this:" Huh!! You mean you did not learn violin outside?? ( Means going to violin classes.) Why don't you get a cert for yourself?? What a waste, you are actually pretty good you know??"
And I was like:" What!? No lah... But I also want to get myself a cert very very much. But I can't make time for all this.I don't have the time to."
OMG!!! I was pretty shocked then. No one has ever compliment me about my violin skills. um...at least from a music teacher la. This is the first time I've heard it. Though maybe she didn't really meant that I was "good" good, but the word "good" in my violin skill dictionary does not exist. I have never imagine that someone will tell me this as I myself is among the worst of all my other friends. I always screw things up, playing wrong note for example, or poor at site reading, lousy skills, etc.etc.
Was quite happy a second or two then, but I didn't feel proud of myself. I know very well that I'm never close to good. I'm very very slow and lousy in everything. This I myself know the best.(Yup!) Its now because of my high expectations or what, but is how I play a simple song I myself also think its just so-so. Nothing to be expected. I would like to play like those pro-violinist which I really want to. But Its totally impossible for me. Haiz...How pathetic I'm.
But somehow, deep down in my heart, I really wish that she really meant what she said. I'm soo eager to do my best in every performance and earn confirmation from others. I like doing what I'm doing and this is what I aim for since I first pick up my violin. But I might be getting greedier and want something more out of it. I'm such a jerk.
But anyway, thanks Teacher Angie for telling me that. I'm quite relieved and is having more confidence in myself now. Am kinda in to the performance on Sunday. Hope I won't screw
anything up that day a and 'diu lian'. Haha...
You might figure what performance is it. I will follow up about the performance. So,have a little more patience la..