Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Last Day.

Oh, its the last day of my Form 4 life. It the last day of 2008. Its the last day of the year I've really enjoyed. Gaining a new family member. Knowing my dear friends of 4M. Realizing my dream of being a part of concert again. Getting my dear Lumix which I had just lose recently. Forgetting many many sad things and moved on just like that. The year which made me realize how lucky I'm. Getting wishes from whom I thought had forgotten me. Be friends with many total strangers. Having the most surprised, and tight scheduled pre-birthday of my life. Joined the most camps and done things which I had never ever imagined I will do. Am happy to experience it which gotten kinda creepy now, but still am happy someone told me that. Gone to the most outings of my life. Laugh the most in all my life. Had many wonderful experience and had enjoyed my school life with 4M very very much. Love this class the most. Love and appreciates my sister more than ever. Learned what makes my life colourful. Thought myself had gained much trust from others which makes me feel happy. Played solo just awhile which maeans a lot to me. Having some interesting phone calls from some people whom I had never expected to call. Gotten myself involved in the online world which became apart of my daily life now....To much to count. Its all great memories.

Though 2008 may seem pretty good for me to you, I had actually missed many many things and had uncountable sobbings and not-so-good experience throughout the whole year. Had missed my one and only chance to do the things I want in the last concert if my life. Didn't get the chance to helpout after that which gave me a breakdown and had somekind of a bad relationship with my family. Had been tired of organizing any acticities and had given in all those kind of things. Stop loving my so called "job" and am very very disappointed with most things I see in my dear members. Had stopped doing most of the things I enjoyed doing i my previous holidays and spelds tremendous time doing nothing. Forgetting most things which had been the most important days of my life and had learned not to care as much as I did to the things which meant more my life. Disappointing many and made most of them giving up hope on me. Let the one and only important ocassion which kept me going for so long slip away just like that and that made me feel doubtful about Jesus now. My life ended then. But now am striving to find a new meaning of it.Became kinda cold with my friends whom I once thought we will be together forever. Lost my Lumix is a piece missing from me now. The year which made me noticed that I'm not even good in what I enjoyed doing which indeed made myself clear that I don't suit it at all. Am now trying hard to fix what I can't do but still fails. Somehow forgetting to think about my friend which had left all of us behind. Got my parents flying off the hook which makes me an ungrateful daughter....Much experience which I desprately wanna forget. But its bound to haunt me for the rest of my life.

Now its my turn to start a new life. Need to make the most out of my last year in high school. Have to start thinking about my future. Take the first step out and make each and everday of my life the last day of my life. Stop being so ridiculas and start being so sturborn...Appreciate everything I have and stop grumbling about the things I dislike. Have to really set up my mind in doing something going all out for it. Being a good girl and love my family more and more....Study harder than last year and aim for the results I want. haha..SPM year is coming....Its gonna be tougher than anything. Really want myself to be prepared for whats to come. To my parents, hope that you won't worry so much like you had this year. I just want both of you to be happy and its no harm living a somple life.

Congrats to all PMR examers. Hope that the results you have is what you aim for. To those who didn't get what they want. Don't be sad and start putting yourself together to do better next time. Please remember that being sad doesn't change anything or make things better. Its the efforts you put that changes everthing....^^ I learned it he hard way. So, please trust me and get on with it...

Anyway, have to say Happy Birthday to my sis. Its her Birthday yesterday and we had gone to PJ to celebrate for her. Am happy to find that her friends are quite cute and very polite in some ways. But am really sad to know that she had a bad fall, got herself injured and is limping now. Haiz.... Silly gal, falling like that and don't even tell us about it because she does not want us to be worry which in a fact didn't help much....Anyway, am happy that you like the gift we prepared for you.

Happy New Year to all. May all the best things happen to each and everyone of you next year!!! Have you made your new year resolutions yet?? If not, please hurry and make one. It helps!!
Hey, we have to start using safety belts starting from tomorrow. Gotta enjoy the last day of safe beltless journey now...haha...

Monday, December 29, 2008

Silly me

Received a phone call this morning. An anonymous called to tell me that practice was canceled today. OMG. How can this be. After confirming, it was real. Damn shocked that it was because of the letter problem. Can it be my fault? After figuring sometime, it came to a conclusion that it really was my fault. I forgot to pass the letter to the guard. Darn it! How can I miss such a thing? No wonder I couldn't sleep well the whole night. Arrgh...How can I miss such a thing? Anyway am very disappointed of myself. I had failed everyone and cause such a problem. OMG. Stupid me........................................................................................................................................................

Hope that we won't have such a problem tomorrow. I really did learn my lesson for being such reckless. Sorry Majorette. Really truly sorry.......................................................................................



Did nothing but watched anime for the whole day. La Corda d'Oro~Primo Passo. Its fantastic! I'm loving it. Thanks E for borrowing it! Dad is on holiday and mum is busying cleaning the house. And lazy me just sitting in front of the computer all day long....haiz...Wasting so much of my precious time doing nothing.......Still feeling very guilty upon the things I did not done.......Dad is so fed up of me sitting down in front of the computer all day....Sad...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
once again to Rynn, Yee Wen and Wei Tang!!! Sorry for not being able to wish all of you in person.
I'm such a crap. Can believe that I can actually complaint so much about a stupid thing. Had been complaint a lot about having lunch with my dad's agent. Where did I find so much excuses to say leh?? Or is it my only talent I posses? Had been complaining a lot. Haiz. Can't help it that I dislike ating with strangers. haha...Then when my went buying fruits and I didn't know what happened to her. She did not do anything. Just stood there watching the fruit sellers do their job. And I was there mumbling ang grumbling about wasting time standing there and stuff. And finally, my dad came along and had actually ask what my mum had in mind. She wanted to see if they have persimmons anot but she just stood there waiting for the persimmons to turn out. In the end, there were no persimmons and we just bought some pears and left. Can't really stand the smooky place. We had stood there for at least 20 minutes without doing anything. And those cigeratte smoke just surrounds us like no body's business....haiz....Really sorry ya mum, for being so bossy in a way.

Had to go band practice later. New A-Band members are joining us today. It must be a crowded day again. haiz. There are many of them joining us later. Hope we will have enough space to stuck in so many people la...^^

Am dissapointed that we tak jadi go out later. Haiz, why is going out so difficult for everyone?? Am kinda tired of hearing the word "Not free...No Transport...." Though I know it isn't their fault that they can't go out, I still feel kinda upset about it. (I'm just crapping...So, ignore me...)

Lastly, Happy Birthday to Rynn Lim!!!! And TL, Yee Wen!!! And Wei Tang!!! Hope you guys will have the best day ever in 2008. May the best things happen to all of you.^^ Happy...happy....happy...

Dawn Anna Townsend...

Columbine gun shooting had really made an arouse to everyone. How can such things happen to a school? It happened 5 years ago on April 20. I did a little research and found that 12 lose their lives whom 1 is a teacher of Columbine. This tears shed incident happened due to only 2 problematic student which became a suicidal terrorist. Can't believve such a thing really did happened. Am actually kinda grieving for those who were lost during the incident. Really hope that things like this wouldn't happen again. For more information, please click here.



I found out about this through a movie called Dawn Anna, I can't believe someone can go through her life so tough so strongly. She's really a role model to everyone. She is a high school Math teacher, a volley ball coach and a mother of 4. Faced a tumor surgery and goes back to work suffering from severe headache everytime. Was very touched when people from all over the district came giving her all their leaves hoping that this can help her. People lining up in the corridor waiting to pass her their leave letters and there were some of them who she don't even know. Later she has to face the death of her daughter, Lauren Townsend (Lulu) during the Columbine gun-shooting event. Its sad in the end and I had really been moved when Dawn wrote a letter to her beloved daughter in memory stating that she had been talking to herself and stuff feeling that Lauren is with her.....She's not going to sit there doing nothing but she wants to stop all this in the country. How many more gun-shooting scenes do they need to stop all these dramatic scenes?? In the movie, Lauren seemed to be such a terrific teen. She's so loving and talented. A girl with a bright future who dreams are to become a biologist. Though I cannot tell you whether the movie is based on the real biography of the characters, I'm sure that it will definitely move you hear. Its such a nice movie and made many cried. A must movie to everyone of my age. Credits to Debra Winger. Please to check it out when you have the time.
here's a site to help you know more: Dawn Anna

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Christmas season...

Haven't been writing about myself this few days. Its Christmas season and there are a few things I wanna blog about.

1st, A belated Merry Christmas to everyone. I had a great Christmas this year. Though there were quite a few of my family members did not attend our annual family gathering, there are still many people whom appear which I don't really know who are they. So who cares that the caroling this year sucks, we are all a family and that counts.

2nd, Its Charmain's birthday on Christmas. Really sorry that I hadn't wish you this year. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! Its not that I forgot your B'day but its that I really didn't arrange my time properly which made me kinda forget to wish you. Really sorry about that. Hope you have a very nice B'day!!!

3rd, I truly think that I'm the luckiest and most blissful person on earth. I already have everything I need. Family, friends, material things, a life, a religion which I love, my band, my home, and last but not least, God is always with me. What can a girl like me ask for more?

4th, Celebrated Christmas with my friends. Am happy to get all of them to celebrate with me. Its not easy to get a chance for all of us from 2 different schools to gather together. We exchanged gifts and sang and ate plenty of desserts. Its definitely the kind of party you would like on Christmas night. Thanks mum and dad for fetching me there. Love you all!!!

5th, Had my haircut theprevious day. Had been long anticipating of this day to come since the holidays started. For the 1st time, I'm quite satisfy with the hair cut I had which I had from that saloon. Thank Goodness....Lucky it looks ok on me. As the previous time she got my hair cut, I look really weird and disliked my hair. but now I'm happy with it. Thanks.

6th, Wanna tell EVERYONE this. Christmas is a time for giving and sharing. Its a time for love and showing others how much you care about them. Just like how much Jesus loved all of us and sacrificed himself for all of us without even expecting anything from us. We must give and share not expecting anything in return. Don't wait for people to give something only you return them. Show your love because you love them and not because they love you. Please, don't get the wrong concept about Christmas which is to receive gifts. Give and share something to others is the thing that counts.

7th, am so fortunate that I had receive so many presents this year. But sadly, I don't have my Lumix with me to show you all of them. I learned to appreciate all I have which I'm much more luckier than most people who aren't very fortunate like me. Santa had granted one of my wish I had been wishing for the past few years. Thank you Santa. Thanks Father...Thank you all very much.

8th, Please do remember Jesus during Christmas. The main character of Christmas is Jesus and not Santa and gifts. So, do realize what Jesus had done for us and do appreciate everything you have now. As everything you have will disappear someday. Trust me, it really will....

9th, Am damn crazy about 张芸京now. She really rocks!!! She even wrote a song about 诈骗集团。 Damn cool man. I heart her!!! Too bad that 廖文强 had been kick out today. I think the song he sang after he was announced being kick out was darn touching. I almost cried when he started singing. How can someone who can sing like that being kick out? Some audience Cried imediately when he started singing the 1st note. OMG. He shouldn't be kick out today....Though I'm routing for 芸京and already know she won, there are still other contestants who are also quite good. haha...

10th, my life feels empty without my Lumix. Missing it so much now. Haiz...

Ok, thats all for now. Have some things which I need finish. Haven't been doing anything this whole holiday. So many things, so little time....

Bible Quotes of the day:
Philippians 4:6
Be careful for nothing, but in every thing, by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God.

Friday, December 26, 2008

Kem Belajar

Am back from Kem Belajar. Many people asked me how was it and I ended up answering:" ok lo...enjoyable..." Ya, its really quite enjoyable, but I couldn't say that its fun. Lets have a quick review on the days of my camp...

22 Dec (Monday)
Was late to school. Everyone is waiting for me to get started. Campers are waiting to report themselves but cannot as I'm holding the most important thing of the leaflet. So, when I arrived I had to rush around to get things settled. When checking-in ended, the programs started. I was one of the refreshment member. So, had to do pay a visit to my new 'home'. Saw the campers playing the ice-breaking games with so much laughter makes me happy as everyone looked very exhausted and looks sleepy earlier... Later that day, me and my 'family members' went out to go on a shopping spree. Four of us, Hoong, Z ER, Fei and me walked around town to buy biscuits. We ate cendol together and had eventually became a 'family' as Hoong and Z Er was like daddy and mummy, kept checking the shopping list and taking us 'daughters' everywhere to buy things. Its really funny when all of us went to market to buy the ingredients for dinner. Four of us went to market to buy vegetables holding a BIG tin of biscuits. The people there kept teasing us about the biscuits. Haha...its fun choosing vegetables together, buying stuffs, finding the right fish to buy, and tell the chicken seller what kind of meat we want. All of us kept taking turns to carry the heavy groceries, and kept taking photos of us choosing veges... We went to yum cha after that, and after we left, something bad happened. Z Er lost her wallet!!! We went around looking for it but it was no where to be found. So sad. We took a taxi back to school as the groceries are very heavy. Had made a police report during our way home and they say need to go report there...So, we can't do anything to help..... Later when we reached school, the taxi can't start and we had to help push the car...Damn malang that day....A camper broke her shoes before the real games began...haiz...

Later at night, the campers had to backwood to make their own dinner. So, our refreshment family have to cook dinner for the committees. Found out that many guys actually cook at home and they are pretty good at it. We had another sister and brother-in-law that night. Many people came to our 'house' to help 'chai tang yuan' and in the end, the tang yuan all become mouldy and we had to roll all of them again. So, all our work all wasted. Lucky we have an ex who became our Ah Gong to help us. haha... We had been scold by CL as too many people were crowding in our 'home'. Haiz...speechless...

We played Zombie after midnight and some of us had to dress up as a zombie to scare the campers and they ended up being beaten by some campers. They are so damn rude!!!! RUDE PEOPLE!!!! Beat people somemore didn't say sorry....But there are also some who cried when we played the game...Haiz....Didn't sleep that night as it anly left a few more hours before daybreak...

23 Dec (Tue)
The prefects have a gathering that day. They all arrived early straight after most of us fell asleep. Had to walk to Lake Gardens as an outing in the morning. All of us waited for the bread to arrived and then asked ex to help us sent to lake Gardens. All of us walked there. I had been so clumsy and forgot something, so I had to run hack and fetch it. Was left out as all of them kept walking and Had to chase them back. Lucky I'm a fast walker and managed to keep up with them. So when we reached there, we played a little game at the playground and someone got hurt and twisted their ankle. So, his buddies gotta carry him around. We ate breakfast at the park and started our station games. Me and Ah Chat are in charge of the same station. So, we made the campers lie down on the grass and scream as loud as they can to relax themselves. We also made some of the to climb a short tree and hug and kiss the tree at the same time. Its so FUN!!!! I enjoyed myself just ddoing both of them and really hope that all the campers do too as well... We came to the concept of making all of them relax themselves and do whatever they want on the 10 minutes given without any boundaries. And most of them just stood there doing nothing, so disappointing. Later before we go back, Me and Ah Chat went lying on the ground for quite a long time to xiang shou for a longer time. Before we head back, we saw the few buddies helping they injured friend back on the way home. Its kinda touching when I saw the scene and felt very nice see this scene. Its feels like the world is still turning and this is what TRUE FRIENDSHIP means. We couldn't help and snap pics of all of them. CL had been sick and is running a high fever then. Red spots starting to pop up all over his body. We were so scared that he had Denggi and it turned out just a high fever. Thank God!!! Siang had to 'bei' the injured camper as everyone is getting tired helping him walk. They were moving slow. So, brave Siang decided to 'bei' him back and got tired before we got back. Lucky Bin came and save him with his motor and sent the camper back.

Spend all of my time at our 'house' when we got back. The poor injured camper can't walk and needs someone to help move him around. So he had to go back after lunch. CL appeared again after he went to the doctor. We adviced him not to come back but he insisted on appearing again. Haiz, all of us is so worried that he cannot make it through the whole camp and will faint anytime. He's really stubborn. Anyway, we prepared dinner for that night which we will be having a camp fire. Its a buffet dinner and we had to buy many ingredients which we forgot to buy then. Walking in and out, in and out in and out so many times. Darn tired that day, me and Fei had to make more than 5 trips to the shop opposite just to make sure everything is done. We even had to walk around cooking, frying, cleanning, cutting and stuff. Haiz...haha..But we are a happy family. Everything we do, we do with laughter. Its really nice working together. We really had a great time. All the campers should be as exhausted as they have plenty activities waiting for them the whole day. After hiking, they have station games, K Singing competition, Physical Training and have to be prepared for their sketch later that night. They must be wearing off like us...haha....Funny where I say the campers are tired, but committees more tired, preparing everything for them without even resting....One camper accidentally fell down when he was trying out the Flying Fox, he fell down straight from top and lucky he didn't hurt himself.

Camp Fire was kinda drag as the fire kept extinguishing as the wind that night is BIG!! So, CL who was sick went on lighting it up a few times and it finally flamed up. Everyone has to walk bare footed to the camp fire as our theme this year is called 《赤脚记号》。The camper all had to paint their face wearing our T-shirt that night. As all the groups perform their sketchs, most of the refreshment members are fishing and some of us just cannot tahan anymore. We nearly fell asleep as all of us are exhausted. But there's still a lot of things needs cleaning up after that, so all of us have to prepare supper and clean up at the same time. There were some food which cannot be finished and I had to go around forcing everyone to take a bite. Its so dificult to make people finish the food. Luckily I found the whole group of scout zai, they were willing to help me finish all my food cheerfully with onli 1 condition of giving them the whole orange juice left. So, we made a deal and they really came and finished all my leftovers. So Good!!! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!! They are really camp Joyers!!! hahahaha...They made my day... '

We played another adventurous midnight game that night. All the lights were off and the campers have no torch with them. They have to solve the mystery of two murder scene through clues and witness. Its getting kinda draggy as the campers are slow to understand what is happening and the had to be pushed and instructed where to go only they go. They were like a hammer and a nail, won't move anywhere else except when instructed. Haiz....Time was ticking and still no one found the killer. In the end, the game had to be ended as the killer(CL) cannot stand it and have to rest. He is too tired and have to go to sleep having his fever going on. Poor thing...So, everyone went sleeping straight after that. My refreshment family members went sleeping soundly when the game is going on as they play no part in the game. They sleep soo damn soundly together which is soo sweet. I really treat them like my family...I played the part as the corps doctor something and give clues to the investigators about how the victim is being murdered. Haha..I sleep imediately when I can...haha...

24 Dec (Wed)
Its the last day of camp. Woke up early again as we had to make breakfast for the campers. Had to perpare water and stuff to make sure all of them are ready to go hiking again. Boiled water and help them fill their bottles. Am kinda in a bad mood as they didn't even say a word of thank you when we help them to do all this. Actually as a refreshment member, we felt like the campers parents as we had been worrying about whether they like to eat the food we prepared or whether its enough, will they have stomachache when they eat our food and stuff. It actually hurts no one appreciates what we did for them. haiz... Anyway, after everyone left for hiking in Temiang hill, there are only a few of us left in school preparing food for lunch and some other non-refreshment committees sleep as they can. So, its really quiet there. 3 of us and Ah Gong with 3 more campers stayed back preparing food. We all work non-stop cooking and cleaning. Found out that almost all KP members cooks well...walah!!! haha..so shock seeing them cook. I also tried out my cooking skills and also sucked in that...haha...All of them laugh at my skills and encouraged me to try a few more time but I still sucks...haha...I know I'm not actually gifted in the cooking part so I left the job to the pros...

When we finish, we began cleaning and packing the school. Lunch was not enough and some campers have not enough to eat. So, we had to cook again for the committees. We cooked fried rice earlier which looks bad and does not look and taste good but all of them finished every bit of it. We later decided to cook fried mihun as we have some left. So, we bought more ingredients which exceeded our budget and CL was so worried about it. Haha...(CL had been sleeping the whole night till afternoon, he finally woke up..haha) Luckily Ah Gong was there helping us to cook the delicious mihun which had been finished eventually. Its happy seeing people enjoying the food you prepare haha.....We packed and cleaned the school with the help of the campers. All the job was finished in no time.

So, when its time to leave, I went keeping my things and check on my belongings. And OMG!!!! AHHHH!!!!!! How can.....Ahh!!! My LUmix is no where to be found!!! AHHHH!!!!! So damn malang!!! Someoen stole my dear Lumix!!! Damn it!!! Shoot!!! I told everyone and a spot check was performed later after that and its no where to be found. So, we came to the conclusion that the cleaners must have taken it!!! I felt like crying that instant but bared with it again. I know its my fault actually leaving it in my bag. Had been expexting something like this to happen someday and now it happened. Am happy that there were many people who cared for me. Someone even adviced me this:“ 美宣, 不要伤心,回家不要哭啦! 旧的不去新的不来嘛!” And I was like:" no la, I am nothing nothing now, don't worry!! I kinda knew something like this will happen..." My heart was damn pain la...Please stop telling me things like that!!! Went home with Hoong and found out that my mum had came to pick me up too. So, had to apologize BIG time to her....Had to be prepared for my Christmas eve party later.....

Anyway, I really miss my refreshment family. Really hope that we can work together again which I know I'll be dreaming that time. Thanks for giving me so much fun throughout the camp and thanks for making me a part of all of you. To you all who are concern, thanks for caring. I'm all right. My family didn't give me a hard time when I broke he news to them. All they say was why did it happen? Where you put it and stuff.....I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!! They even advice me not to put it in the bag and said its ok, you learned your lesson and never repeat it again, ok? I really wonder how can I live without them. So, everyone. I had learned my lesson BIG time, never ever put your valuable things in your bag when you are not attending it. Its really a big chance it will disappear anytime. So, do keep your things near you and somewhere else which has someone looking for it for you.

Lessons I learnt during camp:
1. Never put your valuables in the bag
2. Do whatever you want without thinking much, just think whether the thing you do is right or
not and what will it lead you to in the end thats all. Thinking much makes you lose confidence
and ends up being given up.
3. Say thank you whenever someone does anything for you. Please show some appreciation to
them as they will feel bad and useless doing things for you.


Monday, December 22, 2008

A Happy Day ( yesterday's events)

It had been a very pleasant and good day. Was kinda disappointed that I didn't go to church today as usual its because that we had to sent my sis back to PJ. Though was kinda sad that I did not go as I had been looking forward to go this week, I had enjoyed myself with the accompany of my family. Watched Hannah Montana again and it was totally hilarious as usual. And her songs are all very nice. Oh ya, I watched the trailer and TMO Angus,Thongs and Prefect Snogging. And can't wait for it to screen soon...hahah...This show is a must...

We went to JJ later. Dad gave us some $ to go shopping which we truly did. It was really memorable having four of us eating in KFC again which do not happen often. Was so happy that we get to eat peacefully and happily together. Had hoped that the moment won't pass but it did. I miss Fruit and Nutcase!!! Wanna to read it again!!! And Jean Ure Rocks!!! (for those of you who does not know who Jean Ure is, please visit her website. Click here) There's a few more new book out by her. Can't wait to put my hands on them...haha...Anyway, I saw many of my friends working and shopping there. Its kinda akward seeing your friends working while you go shopping as it kinda makes me somehow lazy seeing them working hard. haha....I'm on top of the world as I bought a pair of shoes I liked. We went back full-loaded. hahaha....

Later we went to KL to sent my sis bac. And guess what, dad took a wrong turn and we were kinda lost. He was getting kinda frustrated but he still managed to to find the way out. So after that, he took us to eat CRABS!!! OMG. It blew me away as the crabs were fantastic. This is our menu: Cheese crabs, 'gong bou' crabs, marmite 'pai guat', lala, 'mantao' and 'sheung tong yin choy'. An really sorry that I sisn't take any pictures to show as good things shouldn't be shown a lot. Though I thought our dinner was fantastic, dad says that there is another place who sells tastier crabs which is more costly. He said that we have to try it. Can't wait to have another crab feast again!!!haha....

After sending my sis back, mum and dad said something that almost made me cry. They had been telling me this but I just don't like to think about it. ( Its not something bad but is something which everyone must go through in life) I still don't want to think about it and wants to live the most out of my life. And I'm living my life now. Anyway, I slept through the whole journey back home.

I made a call to my dear and we chat for almost an hour. Can you believe that. Once we talk, there's no turning back..haha....Am happy to talk to her again. It had been quite awhile since we last talked.hhaha...So its ok to chat for so long...

I need to go to Kem Belajar tomorrow. Still not yet pack my luggague. Haiz...have to stay away from home for a few more days. And I will only come back on Christmas Eve. There goes my 3 days holidays again....haha....GTG now, need to pack and sleep!!!



MERRY CHRISTMAS to all!!! This is a season is sharing, so share all your love to every in your loved ones!!! May you all be good and receive Santa's gift this year. haha...


"You better watch out, you better not cry you better watch out cause I'm telling you why, Santa Claus is coming to town...."

Sunday, December 21, 2008

200 磅美女...(yesterday's events)

It had been a lazy day for me. Woke up at around 9 today and found out a bad news. My mum had a bad fall when she was moping the floor. Poor her. She still feel painful on her back now whenever she moves around. Felt really sorry for her but so not know how to help her. Practiced a little after that. Am quite angry about my dear violin. It feels like something had been upsetting it. It had been mad over something and is not in a mood to play any songs. It shows its feelings by being out of tune and unwilling to stay as it is after being tuned. Had wastes quite some time fixing it and comforting it. Hope that it feels better now. Hannah Montana stills remains hilarious though it had been long since I last watched it. Too bad there's no sign of Kim Possible on tv today.

Had worked on a slide show for lock-in with Beng. It took us a few hours just choosing pictures and adding the titles. Still a long way to go and I have no idea how it would turn out. Hope that it will turn out fine that everyone will love it...

Saw 张芸京singing a Taiwanese Tai Nan song. She was damn awesome just singing with a piano background alone with her smoothing voice alone accompanied by the strange feeling of touching moments which her voice produces whenever she sings...Let alone her singing accapella, I think I'll be in tears by then. I LIKE HER SOO MUCH!!! Everyone still talking about the 1st song she sang in the competition-世界唯一的你. I love her voice!!! Go Gal!!!

Went for dinner with my family. Its nice eating together again with sis around. We ate a lot and saw this amazing scene. We saw a crab escaping from the big tub of water with all its friends there. The worker caught it and put it back inside. But after that, another huge crab also escaped itself from being cooked. This time I caught hold of it and took a pic of it. Look...

Cute rite??

Deep fried pai guat....okok onli...

We wanted to go JJ later but its so jam that we cancelled our plan. So, we just head back home and watched a highly anticipated movie--200 Pounds Beauty. Its so cool man. The girl,Hannah is so damn talented!!! I LIKE HER VOICE TOO!! She sings beautifully though she don't have looks plastic surgery. It felt kinda sad that she went through plastic surgery just to become beautiful. And she became a singer with the name of Jenny.When she sings is as though the time hath stop and that everybody's full attention is on her. She is a natural star. In the end, she finally admitted that she is the background singer,Hannah who went through a plastic surgery and lied to everyone that she is real and naturally beautiful. I think that these people shouldn't be too lacking of self-confidence as what they have can't be replaceable by anyone, which is talent. Looks can be deceiving and can be taken away easily, but talent cannot be taken away not matter what. Except that you waste your talent away by using it for bad reasons or that you don't even bother to use it and wait for it to be wasted away. Its the person itself take way he/she's own talent. Its kinda foolish saying all this as I myself still do not know what my talent is. I was once asked what my talent is and I answered sleeping... I really have no idea what I'm good at. So, thats what I answered. Foolish right?? Back to what I was talking about. The show was overall nice and I recommend everyone of you to watch it. Its really nice!!!
Thumbs up to the song 《星》 too!!! Credits to 金雅中!!! You can hear it on my mixplay...


Saw an accident happened just now. Hope that no one got hurt. May God be with them. Am worried about my mum's back now. Hope that she can recover soon. May you all have a wonderful 冬至。 Can't wait to eat 汤圆later. Too bad sis have to go back tomorrow. Will miss her then.

Bible quotes of the day:
2 Corinthians 4:18
While we look not a that things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen; for the things which are seen are temporal;but the things which are not seen are eternal.


Friday, December 19, 2008

A Not-So-Good-Day...

Went to band today. Its our second chance to work out what we had failed last time. We practiced the new piece 1st and I was kinda proud as we work on this piece. WT was absent today and I got the chance to play his part--solo. OMG. I was freaking out scared when I had to play alone with the other solos. But it felt very good after I finish playing a phrase. Though I SUCK A LOT and that I can see that conductor was not satisfy with my performance, I had actually gain some confidence by doing that. It wasn't everyday that we get a chance to play solo and I know clearly that this is my 1st and last chance to do it. I may not have another chance to play solo anymore. As my violin produces the squicky sound, make the song sounding really dull, it caught me thinking that maybe, just maybe I'll someday get a chance to play like this in front of many people who will be cheering and clapping for my amazing, fantastic performance, which will be me debute......haha, Stupid gal , Day dreaming again....I know that I'm far away from what I had thought, and that its actually 0% of that mere chance that I can achieve something like that which is a mission impossible for me...Must stop thinking nonsense and live my life...

After that comes the most FREAKING moment of the day. Everyone went up to bandroom and waited for all our turns to perform. Me and Jen had been expecting to perform by only two of us which we had told conductor that we wanted to for some logic reasons. And guess what, we had to join the largest group which had performed. And you might think what can be worst?? My violin lad been angry with me for some reasons. It had been out of tune and that the pegs kept turning back after you tuned it back for the whole day. And it did again, before my performance. Was so freaking scared then, knowing that I had to go through my last time with dear him (Its my violin if you are wondering, I declare it as my husband). It was so mad at me that it did not want to perform with me after all. So, I had to perform with Majorette's expensive violin. Was not quite comfortable associating with other violin in front of my dear. And that I had made some stupid mistakes which I know that I shouldn't make. Damn disappointed with conductor and myself. Had actually blamed conductor a little for not letting me n Jen play by oursleves even after requesting. But most of all, its my stupid aota skills which killed my spirit. Darn it, I'm useless!!! Even my dear turn on me too!!!

I wonder what had gone through everyone today. Jen was damn pissed off with someone after practice when we wanted to finish our leaflet. Stress really bring the worst out of everyone. Though was kinda surprised to see her like that, I totally understand what she is going through. The only thing is that she shouldn't had shouted so loud. Haha...Later she chilled and was back to normal. Lucky we manage to finish what we set up to do. Hope that we can finish everything in time.

Proceeding, my mum came to fetch me by 4pm. And she accidentally bang her car when turning at the junction. As I entered the car, she said that we couldn't go home. After questioning, the reason we can't go home is because she locked our house without the key. Dad had recently changed the lock but all of us still do not posses the key yet. So, she accidentally locked the door and it can't be opened again. She had totally let go of the handle and stared her long nag about how stupid she is blaming my dad too. Can't really get mad with her or even blame her for anything. I know that she is having some headache. So, I decided to become the quite one which is totally different from my daily routine. haha... We went lepaking in Gran's place and took her out for shopping while waiting for my dad to come back from KL. Am happy that she's(grand's) happy though she still complaint that all the bad things happen because and I agree that I'm a shou ba xing after she bang the car for the 2nd time in the junction. And she became furious after dinner. She kept on blabbering about how wrong I'm asking her to fetch me and that every bad things happen because of me. And I didn't even give a damn of what she had said as I know clearly that she only said all this because she was not in a bad mood. Amazingly, I did not act like a nutcase either even after all these thing happened. I was so cool and calm and did not even talk back. I acted like an angel today. So proud of myself. Haha...

Hehe, now everything had go on ok. Everything looks normal now, with everyone in my family sleeping soundly. haha...SO GLAD that everything had gone well. haha...Erm, I think I forgot to mention about my mum had faced an accident yesterday. A guy who wasn't paying much attention on the road accidentally hit my mums car but lucky nothing serous happened, it had really gave me a fright. haha...speaking about freaking out...The guy admitted that it was his fault and is willing to pay for what he had done coming.

Saw KS working in Tesco just now. Was so surprised that he worked during the holidays. haha...
Almost forgot to mentioned that yesterday was Yi's Birthday but sadly I didn't prepare anything to celebrate with her. Hope that she will be happy always and will always bring more joy and laughter together.

Am exhausted now. Just ate sousaop just now. No picture as it looks kinda disgusting. haha..
And GREAT NEWS!!
1. I had played SDO finally, had been waiting for a long long time.( Still in L1 songs...)
2. Sis is home!!! She's finally home again!!!
3. I had been a good gal this whole day. I'm an angel...
4. The Youths is in Penang now. Hope that they will enjoy themselves very much, travel safely.
5. YJ is back in M'sia!!! welcome back!!! Hope to see you soon.
6. Grandma is happy that we accompanied her.
7. Christmas is coming!!! OMG...Merry Christmas to all!!!
8. Am officially fully booked this 2 last days of holidays!!! Hope to have more fun!!!
9. Made my 1st lousy solo in school...
10. My mum is the greatest mum ever!!!
11. Leaflet is almost ready...Hope Jen can manage everything...

Gotta go now that's all. Need my beauty sleep now. haha..
Hope that everthing will go on well. haha...
Nitez...

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Last Chance

Its kinda boring today. SJ did not come. So have to practice myself. Its kinda tiring practicing the new piece which was handed out. Though it looks kinda easy,but there are some parts which I can't play well..I really suck in my violin. No wonder I fail...I can't seem to get it right even though I practiced many times. Really don't know how can I survive in band for so long. Gotta put up my guts for tomorrow. Its my last chance. Have to do my best. Hope I don't freak out then. haha..

Had been eating and eating again. I'm out of control now. Just eat and eat and eat....

Mum's Homemade chicken soup...Mmmm...



Had become a kacang putih fan now...


Worries go down better with soup. ~Jewish Proverb

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

FOOD!!!



One of the very nicest things about life is the way we must regularly stop whatever it is we are doing and devote our attention to eating. ~Luciano Pavarotti and William Wright, Pavarotti, My Own Story


Claps to Pavarotties...Am definitely standing on their side!

Arrgh!!! I getting SOOO FAT!!!! I'm fat!!! So damn fat!!!! Ahhhhh....My pants becoming so tight now. So scared that I can no longer wear my pants later....lol!!! Can't imagine myself getting so fat so fast. Though I was kinda plump as I may say, but now I'm FAT!!! You will think that I'm imagining things but no. I'm not. I might not look fat to you all, but I seriously getting fatter and fatter day by day. Can't seem to stop eating now. I have such a LARGE appetite now that I will yearn for FOOD every now and then. Even after meals and when my stomach is so stuff and things. My arms are HUMONGOUS now, my tights are super large. I'm FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT!!!! Fatty bomm bomm is what my dad use to call me and now I'm really one. Errgh...How can I loose weight if I keep eating like that. Lazy somemore to exercise. Everyday eat then feel sleepy, eat then go to sleep...What also lazy to do now...Haiz....How pathetic...Anyone have tips to loose weight?? Can teach fatty me a??

Now yearning for food again. Today I kept stuffing fruits into my mouth as there is nothing in my house other that fruits. Oranges, apples, papaya...Munch...munch...munch...Mmmmmm..... And then later I start my journey in search for makanan again... Its kinda killing when you feel like eating but there's nothing to eat...hahaha...I'm so pathetic yet again... Gotta used water as a replacement for food....haha..My stomach almost burst after having homecook Yong Tofu for dinner. And guess what, after lepaking for a while, I went to the frige search for my next victim: papaya...OMG. how can I tahan so many things in my stomach o....

Talking about food here's some food I had taken during lock in...

Soup...


'Zap Fan'


Chicken...


Nothing would be more tiresome than eating and drinking if God had not made them a pleasure as well as a necessity. ~Voltaire

PS 2...Lock-In

Haha...Went PSing the whole day today. A few of the crazy 4Mers gathered together just to play. Its kinda funny that we had just played PS 2 and computer the whole time and nothing else. Am very glad that this small gathering can be held though there is only 4 of us. I had a great time hanging out with all of them. I also saw the puppy that 4M had adopted during the mid year and now we meet again. (Actually there were 8 of them and Charmain adpoted one of them ) Was soo surprised that it had grown soo big!! Its so huge!!! Haha...Not that huge la...But really unexpect to see it so BIG!!! haha....Nice feeding it Charmain...Good Job.

On 1 August 2008 ( I think this is it...)


On 16 December 2008....See the difference??



We watched a clip which Connie Talbot sang in BGT and we said we want to make alvin cry and I think he 'did' cry....haha....We made it...We made him fake crying...haha....C's brother was so interested in playing Resident Evil but he was so scared to play alone. So, A had sort of been his big brother for a day....Its so sweet seeing them playing together....

Don't they just look like brothers??


Hey guys, next time same thing again a??? By that time, we must have more people joining us,ok??

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Here's a little about my church lock-in. We had invited some people form the Puchong Congregation to join our Lock-in. Though most of them are non-Christians, and this is their 1st time attending church, they seemed to make themselves comfortable. The theme is called Jesus which was basically to learn more about Jesus. All 43 of us had been divided into 4 groups which are clubs, hearts, spades and diamonds. Am happy being one of the clubbers...We had sang praises and done devotions together. We even had a new punishment for those who loses in the games....Its called butt-spelling. Its so funny seeing them moving their butt around spelling weird long words....Just couldn't help it. Played many interesting games the whole time. And as the official photographer of the whole activity, I had to take all the memorable scenes for everyone. Though my photography skill sucks, I enjoyed doing my job. Its so nice asking strangers to post to take pictures which we get to know each other like that. Can say that its the Best Lock-in yet in these few years...It really had bring all of us closer as a big family. It had also got me thinking more about God. Hope that the good memories will last long and that all our relationship will never fade. Praying too that all the non-Christians will accept Christ someday....Thats all for now. Will updated about it whenever I have time....

Bible Quotes of the day:
Judges 5:31
May they who love you be like the sun when it rises in its strength.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Craps...

Came back from Lock-In yesterday, Its one of my church function. Will update about it later. Was damn tired when I got back and straight went to sleep after watching 《微笑Pasta》. And once I sleep, there's no turning back... I slept at 6.00 p.m. and woke up at 7.oo am next morning. Was so unsure whether is it the same day or the next morning when I got up. Had to do some 'research' before actually getting up...haha...

Yesterday was the day they announced the results of my band's exam. And guess what?? I FAILED....I didn't do my best and got the result I had expected actually. Was kinda sad at first but I had bared with it again. Its sucks failing after all the practice I had made. And was kinda embarrassed at first but all of us who didn't made it get a 2nd chance to perform again. So I must take my last chance to prove that I am actually not too bad. Must PRACTICE MORE!!! MUST WORK REALLY HARD THESE FEW DAYS!!!!!

Had celebrated Yi's birthday earlier. It was actually fun tricking her to come with me giving her a big surprise and helped her celebrate her birthday. We had a lot of fun eating and singing together. Hopr that our friendship last forever.....Wanna meet you all again...I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! Did you all have as much fun as I did??

It will be a long long week for me. Have to grab as much sleep I can get...haha..Have many things to do 1st. But there's a phrese I learned from the camp in KL is that as a leader, we must not say that how tired we are as this is the first step of failure in doing all things. So, I must cut down then no. Of me saying how tired am i and many many more things I need to change. Haha...

Had not been paying much effort already. Am starting to back out and don't care about many things already. I know I promised myself I wanna do my best. But I fail again...How can I so it right??? Don't care so much 1st la...See 1st later....Gotta sleep now...Nitez...

Inspirational Quotes of the Day:

Be a Friend to thyself, and others will be so too.
--Thomas Fuller

Your friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.
--Elbert Hubbard

Friday, December 12, 2008

Exam....Sony Cyber Shot....

Woke up quite early this morning. Felt quite stupid as I can't actually wake up early whenever I wanted and needed to. Still suffering from the tiredness I gained last week...Damn exhausted now, but still made myself online...haha...Really an Online geek...haha...

Yesterday was my school A-Band members exam day. All of us gotta sit for a quick exam to test our skills so far. Was really nervous then until I can't get my fingers to move right. I felt as if my heart is gonna explode when I went in and kept telling myself to cool down. It didn't work. Had been practicing almost everyday for at least 2 hours since the score had been given out. And now, I fail myself. I did really bad. Kept repeating the same thing to get it right in front of conductor. And still I fail. All my efforts had been flushed down the drain due to the stupid nerves. Why do people get nervous anyway?? Felt like crying when I came out. But in the end, I bared with it. Am so disappointed of myself now. Don't know whether I can pass or not....Results will be announced on Monday. The anticipation is killing me!!

Had to pack my luggage again. Am having a Lock-in at church later. So, that means I won't be able to blog for 2 days or maybe 3. Am excited as this year there will be more people joining us as there were only the Youths past year which can be quite a drag sometimes...Anyway, I think we will have more fun this year as we can get to know more new friends and that the activities are more well planned. The camp which I had just attended lately seemed to changed me about somethings. I had learned to get along with outsiders and to be able to adapt being friends with strangers. Which gave me the impact of missing my past group members until now. They weren't the best group members which I may consider, but they are simply unforgettable ones.

My dream camera now. Sony DSC T700 and T77. Just visited them yesterday. Walao...really beauties....My dream camera the day before was T-300 which I thought was the newsest model and how wrong am I... Anyhow, I still prefer T700 as it has all the features of T-77 and better .Haha..Had my Lumix already and now want to change my target...Really flower heart. haha...

Sony DSC-T700



Sony DSC T-77


Tuesday, December 9, 2008

2008 年全国华文学会领袖研讨会

Had just came back from 2008年全国华文学会领袖研讨会 organized by 宗乡青. Was very grateful that I went this time. The camp was quite the same as what I've been through, the programs, feel, the environment and many things more. The only different is that the organizers are nicer, better, and the crowd with 308 people from all over the country. Was kinda shock to know that there are so many people attending it and was proud being one of them. Here's a quick review about what we had done these 3 days.

6 December 2008 (Saturday)
Took a bus down and reached 尊孔独中. Are late but we did made it as we were kind lost at first. Got into our groups which had been given names by the organizers. I joined the 林肯帮...Got to know some of my group mates and learned our camp song. The song was fantastic. Am loving it. Ice-breaking really made us feel more family like. All 17 of us get along pretty well. We performed our group slogan which I think was kinda lame during group introduction. 甘证豪 gave a very interesting speech about becoming successful. It was the BEST workshop in the whole camp. Love this guy man... Got a chance to eat with my group mates for the 1st time. Noticed a very gentleman like guy in my group who is kinda cute. He help me fetched a drink for me when he noticed that I did not have one. THANKS!!! We had a really fun game which is to leave messages or letters in the mail box of each group. Each of us had to write a letter to an anonymous. We can also leave messages to our friends and group mates when ever we want. Everyone started to mail each other since then. Slept immediately after having a good chat with Yi.

7 December 2008 (Sunday)
Woke up quite early that day. We actually had to wake up by 7.30am that day but many girls started to wake up from 5am. We had a nice breakfast and went on dancing our camp theme song again. Joined by 2 Workshops before lunch. I joined the 花灯制作workshop and made a nice plastic lotus...But it didn't really turn out as I had expected...Mine is really ugly and kept falling apart. Haiz..What a failure..We had a talent night later. All groups are compulsory to perform a sketch about famous people. And my group did a sketch about Gandhi. It did went well but we didn't get the best group. haha...anyway, we still felt happy. We had a heart to heart talk later. Everyone had benn given a candle and we had a fire light passing ceremony in which we pass the fire along so that everyone get to lit their candle. The main aim of this session is to make sure all fo us will pass the Chinese culture down from generation to generation so that it won't extinct. Many campers went out expressing their feelings anf thoughts and many cried too as they were very touched of what had been said and that the camp had changed many people. We didn't get a chance to bath that day until midnight and many of us went bathing after all the activities. There were a forum going on next day and some of the presenters stayed up late to prepare for it. Some of us stayed up to reply letters to our friends as the next day was the last day of camp. Was very surprised to see the organizers still working up until the next morning. Some of them didn't even sleep. Really admired their spirit.
Sketch...
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8 December 2008 (Monday)
Its the last day of the camp. All of us were kinda tired as we slept quite late the day before. Many fell asleep during the forum which made the Camp Leader furious and that we did not respect the people talking. Felt knida bad as I had not been paying much attention to it actually. We started packing our luggage after the last workshop and had the last meal of the camp. Me and my group members stayed together and waited for the last person to finish her meal. We took some photos together and we finished the leftovers together as a group and was very proud of our team spirit. For the 1st time we felt like a true family... Was kinda down later as there was a session for heart to heart talk later that day. Took another full campers photo and ran around the hall over and over again. We celebrate the last moment together and felt very high till the end. My group members took photos together and then pack and left. Felt very sad leaving all my new friends and departed back home. Had a nice talk with my school friends in the bus and all we talk was about the camp what had happened and etc. Started to miss all the moments already. Haiz....Heavy hearted....
林肯帮...



Its was kinda great but was kinda disappointed as it wasn't what I've expected. I didn't really feel anything special or different from me. But I did really get along with my group members and was very happy to get to know some really nice people. It doesn't matter whether we meet next year or keep in contact the days later, all this will be a very good memory for all of us. I hope that we will still remember each other when we meet again. Am missing all Group 12 members very much....Hope to meet them soon....

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Crapping...

Gotta start packing my luggage. There's many things that needs last minute touch up. Must get ready for the long weekend....This...That...Oh ya, almost forgot to pin that up in my mind....Arrgh....And that and that....How can I remember so many things????

Am having a One day Camp tomorrow which is followed my a 3 days camp in KL....And I hadn't been sleeping well this whole week!!! How can I survive all this?? Hope to get a good night sleep later...Will be missing my violin, must touch it more often this 2 days...

Whats it with all this people...Using people's things some more want to grumble so much. Whats wrong with having many things in my notebook?? Ya, I admit that it is very very slow, but its mine!! I like it the way it is. So, please stop grumbling!!! I have not even complaint about you all simply changing my things. I like my notebook and I don't care whatever other people says!!! Hope that it can function well tomorrow la.....Please..please...please don't simply die off like that la...Tomorrow is the BIG day!!!

Just finished wrapping my 1st and ever hamper. What a big accomplishment for me. Though its not as nice as I've pictured it, it stills looks ok from FAR...Hope that they don't think its too ugly or that its not nice...What do you think??



Gotta get back to work now. Just felt like spamming something here...So, please ignore what I just crapped...haha...Thats all..Better finish off my Nodame Cantabile first before going anywhere....

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Feel Good

Its actually very nice chatting with old friends. It brings back memories...The great feeling that you'll have knowing what wonderful friends you have. Telling each other what had happened to each others' lives...Dreams....Crushes...Lovers....And so on...Am really missing the times we are together, having each other to back each other up, doing practically everything together. Enjoyed our conversations. Though there are times we have practically nothing to talk on, just sitting there being in our own worlds, not cracking anything up, and there were times we just kept laughing laughing laughing for mo reason....We're actually like a bunch of crazy people laughing out loud!!! haha..

I miss all of them...All the times we had spent together...Laugh together...Play together...Cry together...Being there for each other...And even just smiling to each other seems like a life time to me..I LOVE THEM ALL!!!! Miss you all so much!!!

Its quite hard for me to find good friends who can really accompany me everywhere now...Its all due to my uncertain schedule..and my poor time arrangements... But I'm used to my uncertainties now... Friends who can really help me are those who are happy to see me whenever I bump into them, smiling at me saying :" Hai!!!" . Its actually enough for poor old me to go on the rest of the day. I also felt very bad to all my fellow friends that I had not spent much time with all of you this year...All apologies from my heart...Will want to pay back everything moment for you all.....haha...Someday....

Truly Nyonya

Went to a Truly Nyonya for dinner just now with me parents. Its in Era Walk. The place didn't look anyhow special to me from its surface and looks more like a normal cafe to me than a restaurant. But when we got inside its another story. I was so astonished with its interior design. Its actually a place with a concept of a relaxing coffee shop, music cafe sort. Its really relaxing. A nice comfortable wooden long bench with pillows on it, close shot pictures, a small place for some books and games, Animal planet with Austin Steven performing his snake hunting skills, plus a nice juicy Jazz as background with Buble swinging away. I like the place. Its the type of place which I can consider the ultimate relaxing place for me.



Curry Chicken-A little too salty


Ladies fingers with prawns-Liking it



Asam fish-Its on the sour side, 6/10 ( No pics,sry )

ABC Soup-Mum's soup's the best.

The moon tonight is so cute. Its a U shape with 2 stars on top of it.
Can You see it??



G. K. Chesterton:
The true object of all human life is play. Earth is a task garden; heaven is a playground.

How could he know??

OMG. He knows whats going on with me!! How could he possibly know? I didn't show any sign about it what. I acted like normal. Everyone else does not even notice anything but how could..?? He must have some super power or something...haha.. Can't believe that he notices such things...

Here's a pic which I took in the morning meeting.
I personally like it very much, what do you think??



*Sry BE for putting your pic here...haha...

Monday, December 1, 2008

Screw...

It should be one of the most important day of my life I may say. But it turned out to be one of the most disappointing day of my life. Had been in a bad mood since morning. Don't know what had happened to me. Wept a few times on and off without even know what's its cause. Thinking that it had to be about what had not happen to me, I couldn't stop my tears for some reason.(Its P&C...) Skipping church had to be one of the minor reasons of my tears, I think. Anyway, practicing makes me feel better but stills is not good enough to stop my tears. Afternoon, we went to KL again, thanks to my dear dad...

It was quite a draggy journey there, and my mood don't seem to go away. And Darn it!!! Accidentally said something harsh to mum which I think had made her quite upset without even knowing what am I saying. Acting like an idiot, I just simply upset everyone. Dislike the me I'm .now. I'm always doing things which upsets others and I meant it for real. What a great big fat LOSER I'm.

Shopped in Lot 10 from afternoon until night. Still no mood to shop, I showed my sour face everywhere. I didn't notice my sulky look until mum told. And damn it!!! Had enough of my stupid self. When will I get over with it???

Had dinner in a roadside hawker center which serves only 'dai cao'. Felt a little better after feeding my empty stomach. Bad mood had subsided half. haha...Feeling better...

Snap Shot of the beautiful KL-tower from the car


Dad and sis went getting a cake for me. Had managed to have peace again with mum. Bad mood-0%...haha...I'm happy again!!!!! Went to sis's rented house to cut the cake. This is my first time celebrating outside of home. Was feeling kinda awkward doing it in other people's house but luckily the owner didn't mind. Was very happy and blissful having my family around. We went home after we had enough of the cake.
Happy Family...

On our way back, dad said something that made me sort of down again.

He: "You must appreciate daddy taking you shopping here(Lot 10). This
might be the last time you are coming because I will not be always with
you. Daddy can take you here now when I
still can. If something happens
to daddy, how will you all going to come here again?? So, you must be
appreciative. Take whatever chance you have and buy whatever you
want....
"

Felt like weeping again after he said that but I bared with it. Anyhow, I napped on the way back home. Reasoned out myself finally. God will always be with me no matter who I'm and what I'm not. HE will always walk beside me not leaving me alone. I was being foolish just now. But had finally came to such a wonderful conclusion. What a lucky girl I'm...^_^

Had just finished opening my presents. HAha...Was very happy to see the presents I had received. Liked them all...Thanks guys for giving me such nice Presents. Was so touched to see the cards and gifts given by everyone. Though it wasn't actually the most presents I had ever received and it is not considered best Bday ever, I can say that I'm very satisfied with whatever I have now. Thanks to my dear family and cute friends. Hope that all of you also had a satisfactory Sweet 16!!!
My Beautiful gifts...Thansks guys... :D


Take note: Whatever can happen eventhough you had planned it for a long time. Anything can happen and we can't do anything to stop it. In the end, we'll either feel disappointed, guilty or heart-broken. There are many alternatives to change the scenerio, but many of us just seem to let it be. After all the disasterous moments had gone, we'll realize that we had missed every good times before, living in sadness and misery. And the only thing we can do is to go on with life. Making sure that everything's back on track. Stand strong in whatever you believe in. Stand up again whenever we fall down and smile through all the embarassing moments of our lives. It will only help us get stronger, stronger to face all the uncertains in the future.....