Because I'm Happy~

Its midnight again,
A time where my thoughts run free,
when my brain is most stimulated.

Am munching a plum right now, an expensive plum which daddy bought for me just beacuse I craved for it.
It's not sweet, or amazing, not the kind of plum I was craving,
but its really satisfying.

For the past few months I have been validated more times than I had ever been my whole life.
I can't tell enough how awesome my colleagues make me feel,
though I know that I am not that great at all...
But today was the day I feel loved and wonderful.
One major part of my job is to validate people's parking token,
I had to validate around 30 tokens each day and they come at differing times of the day.
They were all very friendly and polite,
and I am secretly glad that I had to do the job as I get to meet and talk to people everyday.
There's this pretty lady who always comes in with a smile,
and never failed to strike a conversation with me, even if it's just a brief 'How are you?'.
She's my fav among all those who comes to validate their token.

Today she came again, as usual passing me her token to be validated and put a Gloria Jeans box on my table. I thought she was just putting it there as she waited for me so I did not pay any attention to it. 
Then she passed me the box,
saying 'This is for you. Thank You for always smiling, I know it's not easy to do it everyday... It means a lot to me...'
It caught me in surprise as I would never think that people would thank me for small little things like that.
But at the same time I was touched that she is so thoughtful as to remember me...
For something that I don't do consciously, it mattered to her, I am glad.
As she was in the midst of talking to my colleague, I overheard that it's sort of like her last day coming so often as she finished her practicuum.
I was a bit sad and I didn't know what to do, because she's the first I'll be saying bye bye to before I finish my contract...
I wanted to give her something to  thank her for making my job a lil' more interesting,
but I didn't have anything with me..
In the end, all I did was to ask her if I can take a picture of her.
Had to use Olympus as Nikon wasn't with me today...
Her Chocolate Hazelnut pie (Or something like that) really made my day...
She said it's her favorite and she hope that I'll like it,
it was touching and I really really feel grateful and the pie is super YUMMY!!!!!
Hope to see her again soon! =)
I'm a happy girl! ^^

Thanks Christy! You're so cute and beautiful at the same time, all the best with your internship! ^^

" People who can make others feel great are Great people themselves"... 

Just now this thought came into my mind:
Devils are like dust,
We have to clean it everytime, thinking that we will be clean after that,
But it comes back,
Then you'll have to sweep it clean again, and it comes back again...
Dust never actually go away, they just disperse and comes back and clot until it's visible to us.
It's just like how we are everyday, we try to keep ourselves away from the devils.
but the it keeps coming back,
and many times we live with dust,
feeling lazy to clean it off...
Forgetting God's word, forget to read the bible,
Forget to ask Him for help.
So we succumb to sinning.
I guess what we need to do is to clean the dust daily,
read His Words each and everyday to keep the devil away,
even though he doesn't actually go way, at least we can remind ourselves to keep away from him.
I really hope that this dust analogy can be my motivation to read His Words. hehe..



Shallows-Daughter

There are times...

There are times when I would like to have a portable car.
A car which I can bring myself everywhere,
fetching the people I care a lot around,
pick them from their distress,
bring them to the most amazing ice-cream place ever,
bring the whole group of people to have a warm dinner together.

Sometimes I would like to drive a bus,
so I can fetch a whole bus full of people for the cause we all believe in,
to places we want to explore together,
to leave no one out from the adventures we embark on,
going anywhere and everywhere who needs us,
without having to worry about how to get to places.

Some times I just wish I have an eye for details,
the special ability to look at the small things in life,
to be able to spot mistakes,
make adjustments to the tiny whinny errors made,
to perfect the imperfections in everything,

to make the world a little prettier,
to help reduce the work of others.

Most of the time I would like to be more disciplined,
making sure that I do everything I want to do constantly,
reading the scriptures each and everyday,
listening to beautiful voices everyday,
jotting down each and every details of my life so I won't forget,
spare more time with the people I love,
to keep the words I have promised,
give to others to the best of my ability,
constantly. 

There are also times when I wish I could be better,
being in a much further place than I am now,
to be able to know more about people,
without feeling a little less of my self,
to be able to improve from who I used to be,
be able to get better in the things I do from before,
instead of standing at the very same spot I was 5 years ago,
going no where...


But most of the time I am fascinated,
about many things in life,
like how come kids can say things like chicken in replacement to kitchen,
how amazing some people can be when they sing or play the violin,
how come such wonderful pictures can come from an amateur photographer,
how can people take pictures with such impact at a time of terror,
how freely birds can fly,
how amusing my colleagues find me to be, 
how happy children in Cambodia can be,
how friendly Philippinos are,
how powerful love can be,
the way my parents show that they love me and my sister,
the secret to grandma's way of making me feel awesome,
the great creations God has made,
the love that God has for each and everyone of us...
how life is an irony that the more awesome I feel about myself, I feel worst about myself.

We can't always get what we want, so we just make the most of what we can get.

The sun will always appear after a storm, 

hope will never cease. 

Lord willing, I can be better. 

I miss AOF, having kids to cling on me, 

I miss eating Roasted needle mushrooms with butter!

Do You Want to Build A Snowman - Kristen Bell / Katie Lopez / Agatha Lee Monn