Oh well...

I guess some times it really takes some time to realize how fast things become past tense and that it's time to move on and go on to the next thing in life. 

Can't tell if that time is really moving fast or that I am too slow to understand what is going on in life. 

Maybe I am just too ignorant. 

Many things seem to be coming to an end very very soon, a part of me feels a teeny wheeny relieve that it's going to be over soon, but a huge part of me is still lingering about how well life has been for the past few years. 

I guesss all we have to do is to wait and see,...

I guess 2016 really markss the ending to many things... 

Brexit, 

Obama's office,

Resignation of New Zealand's and Italy's Presidents,

Jobs, jobs, jobs,

A cute Cambodian friend's life,

A once very close friendship,

AOF,

School life... 

I heard of a song dissing 2016, and it seems so relevant to be sung as it hasn't quite been a year of positive encounters. 

I guess 2017 will be the beginning of a world of unknown and uncertainties... 

Dear Lord, please bless all of us... 

* No song playing in my mind that's relevant to my current mood right now. Shall sign off with a :) 

Good night world. 

Ramblings

It's funny, how life turns out to be.
One moment you found this someone who seems to be the closest person you could ever be with a stranger,
but in another moment, two people can just turn, cold as though never met before.
Life really has no guarantee, be it for family, friends, partners or colleagues,
Perhaps its always better to meet strangers, and... remain strangers,
At least the novelty will be around,
the heart to understand each other will continue to pound,
the curiosity towards this other being that you first met will be intriguing,
the courteous manner and the open mind seems to make meetings more pleasant...

So, why do we need people whom are close to you then?
When all you every said or share can turn into ashes in a split second,
by as slip of mouth,
a broken promise,
a lie,
a deeper understanding towards this other person that you wished you've never knew...
I really wonder.

But on the bright side, there's always a good reason to have someone close to you,
at least you can have someone, it could be just an idea or a real person to share things with,
happy and sad things,
a place to rant, and a place for hugs and seemingly encouraging words,
someone who seems more angry than you when bad things dawn upon you,
a partner in crime, a person to laugh at your crazy jokes,
a person to tell you all the ugly truths about you that no strangers dare to,
a friend or family.

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My previous post talked about a change in my life that I want to have,
well, change happened, although not a huge one, but I hope that it's only going to get better.

Heavy eyelids preventing me from typing any longer.

Good night world.

Why am I still here?

My heart is raving for a new change in life,
But I guess the hesitation of letting go is holding me back.
There's this part in my that can't wait to explore the world,
See new sights, learn new things, meet new people,
Do new things
And leave whatever part in life that's mundane, and boring...

Why am I still here?
That's the question I ask each and everyday...

Changes happen all the time...
It's time to bid goodbye to someone great,
Who made significant change in the school system,
But there's always this hindrance that makes all the great people move on...
It will be a tough transition,
Despite the big change,
Things still seem to stay the same....
It's a conscious choice that was made,
But yet. I can't help asking myself again,..
Why am I still here.

My heart goes to Christina Grimmie,
An amazing singer whom played a part in introducing YouTube music to me...
Things change all of a sudden...
And at times, it puts a full stop on life...
May your beautiful voice continue to inspire those who is still stuck in this physical world..

May the light in the end of the tunnel shines in brightly soon,
It seems so hard to see the positive side of things with so much to worry about..
Hope that everything will be ok.


Love is Easy  -  McFly

Late nights, cool beans

It's just interesting to know that as much as blogs are a HUGE thing now in today's world,  almost everyone I know stopped writing them. People simply moved on and stopped dwelling in these sacred place where we spent many late nights browsing, reading about people's life, rants and thoughts.

Shall leave a word or two here in since I feel that this is one of those nights when I blog. haha.

Just finished watching a series and it makes me think a lot in the series. Is change for the better when we feel that we are really happy? I've seen many people, singers/composers especially, take a totally different path after they deemed to have been 'renewed' in life came back into business. They all seemed happy, but the music they make is just not the same any more, it's like without all the struggles and pain, the sound isn't as awesome anymore.

Anyway,  it's really weird to come back here after almost 2 years of absence, only to find that so many widgets that used to be the IN thing, disappeared or has been obsolete. It's like a part of me is wiped out just like that, after spending so much time customizing, trying to make the blog as personalized as it could be, and now, many of the links or tools are just... gone.

Life has been ok so far. Looking forward to a Looooong vacation or break back to nature. Although I haven't talked about it here, I miss being in YNP every single day. The longing doesn't stop although you know nothing over there will be the same again. Hoping hard to get a getaway, have some time to think about Life for a bit, to be able to breathe without feeling that life may fall apart if you breathe too hard, or forget  something. I may have the lowest stress inducing job available, but in this big city life, Stress is in the air, there's no escape from it. A small town girl like me catches the stress and all of a sudden feels so overwhelmed with her life even when there's not much to fuss about. As much as I don't want to admit, city life can be a lot to bear even though one may not go out very often. It frustrates me about how lonely the walk can despite having so many people walking beside you. No wonder many suffer from depression and other anxiety issues even though they are constantly with someone... It just feels so empty inside.

Moving on, May will be a big transition for many of us, it's like another part of my life will be torn apart and taken away from me. I don't really know how I will feel then, but will just live day by day until time comes and each and everyone who are affected will seek ways to adapt to the change that is bound to happen in life. There is so much to ponder about and to be sorted out then. The adjustment period for all of us... Am hoping for the better. Hope to seek refuge in this big confusing world.

Toodles! =)


I Am Alive - Jason Mraz and JJ Lin