Late nights, cool beans

It's just interesting to know that as much as blogs are a HUGE thing now in today's world,  almost everyone I know stopped writing them. People simply moved on and stopped dwelling in these sacred place where we spent many late nights browsing, reading about people's life, rants and thoughts.

Shall leave a word or two here in since I feel that this is one of those nights when I blog. haha.

Just finished watching a series and it makes me think a lot in the series. Is change for the better when we feel that we are really happy? I've seen many people, singers/composers especially, take a totally different path after they deemed to have been 'renewed' in life came back into business. They all seemed happy, but the music they make is just not the same any more, it's like without all the struggles and pain, the sound isn't as awesome anymore.

Anyway,  it's really weird to come back here after almost 2 years of absence, only to find that so many widgets that used to be the IN thing, disappeared or has been obsolete. It's like a part of me is wiped out just like that, after spending so much time customizing, trying to make the blog as personalized as it could be, and now, many of the links or tools are just... gone.

Life has been ok so far. Looking forward to a Looooong vacation or break back to nature. Although I haven't talked about it here, I miss being in YNP every single day. The longing doesn't stop although you know nothing over there will be the same again. Hoping hard to get a getaway, have some time to think about Life for a bit, to be able to breathe without feeling that life may fall apart if you breathe too hard, or forget  something. I may have the lowest stress inducing job available, but in this big city life, Stress is in the air, there's no escape from it. A small town girl like me catches the stress and all of a sudden feels so overwhelmed with her life even when there's not much to fuss about. As much as I don't want to admit, city life can be a lot to bear even though one may not go out very often. It frustrates me about how lonely the walk can despite having so many people walking beside you. No wonder many suffer from depression and other anxiety issues even though they are constantly with someone... It just feels so empty inside.

Moving on, May will be a big transition for many of us, it's like another part of my life will be torn apart and taken away from me. I don't really know how I will feel then, but will just live day by day until time comes and each and everyone who are affected will seek ways to adapt to the change that is bound to happen in life. There is so much to ponder about and to be sorted out then. The adjustment period for all of us... Am hoping for the better. Hope to seek refuge in this big confusing world.

Toodles! =)


I Am Alive - Jason Mraz and JJ Lin