I Feel like My Heart is Gonna Burst

Sometimes when I listen to a song I really like,
really really like,
it makes me feel as though my heart is gonna burst.
I can't comprehend why, but it just feel awesome....
Makes me feel inspired to do the song,
to sing it out with all my heart and soul,
hoping that it sounds as beautiful as how I heard it.
It's just amazing,
that feeling.
I just want to be able to get people who can create beautiful melodies with me,
be it a band, orchestra or my own acapella group.
I just want to sing,
I just want to play,
with everything I have.

It's a new year again,
many things have changed.
I am no longer a student anymore.
Though it does not make much difference as I get to go to my uni everyday still,
but when I get home everyday,
it just feel, different.
I want to have assignments, rush for events, have practices, and just listen to lectures.
And I realized, all these won't happen anymore.
Things are different even if I take my Masters...

But one thing that is fortunate is that I get good colleagues.
My third day of my official job went by blissfully.
My colleagues are just so cute and welcoming.
Thank you Lord. =)

My uni life gave me so much that till now I still flip back to the past to relive some of the most wonderful moment in my life.
Also, I got to achieve things that I secretly wanted to do in my uni life.
Yeps, I played in a band,
an official band,
as a guitarist and a bassist.
Fulfilling the dreams of my previously amateur mind,
thinking that by knowing a few chords, I can play in a band.
Though it wasn't a perfect performance as I screwed up some parts,
it happened.
And I loved my oldies and miss them dearly.
Also, I got to be the vocals at KLPAC, even though I was just a harmonizer.
Something I really wanted to do after watching lead singers like Hayley Williams, Jung YongHwa, Demi Lovato play and sing, wowing everyone...
It just feels AMAZING...
I love the stage,
yep, I like to be on stage, A WHOLE LOT!
And God gave me a stage.
I am blessed.

I went to Philippines for a mission trip,
Organized camps accommodating around 600 campers,
Bought groceries amounted around 2k for aborigines,
Pulled off a stage play and a mini musical of singing and dancing,
Had an exhibition and production  performance in a mall,
Learned how to design,
Shot pictures for official events,
Won colloquium, twice,
Played in a netball team,
Hiked 2 mountains,
Tutored maths to a secondary student...
Performed at two contemporary concerts,
went to my first artist concert in my life, JASON MRAZ,
1st MPO concert,
1st STOMP concert...

This is a beautiful beautiful world.

Taken at Kibungan Mountain range.

Life is just wonderful.
And I never regretted joining HELP.
Period.


Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova

It feels like everything is out to make me lose control

Each and everyday, I feel less of myself...
I know this sounds emo, but am trying to write as much as I can.
I want to get back into writing, journal the state I am so that as time passes, I know of a place to remember what happened in my lifetime.
Credits to this have to be given to the bad memory I have.

Every day I scroll through my social networks,
it is interesting to see what other people have done and accomplished.
But it only leaves me feeling small and intimidated.
Where am I now, what am I doing?
I used to be sure of everything that I do,
how I like things to be.
I still do now, but it is not as important
as it seems previously.
I don't really care about what will I work as, how will things work out.
I don't care what happens next.
Now there's this empty space inside, dying slowly I guess.
Is it because I'm nearing the finish line of my student life?
Crap, I don't even know if I can graduate now.
Heart constantly pounds heavily these days.
Yes, am feeling apprehensive...
I am not usually like that, even on the day of deadline, I don't experience such immense emotions when I am no where near done with my assignments...
But now, things are almost done,
I feel scared, disheartened... Lost.

There's so many things I want to do and I would like to do as always.
But what is different now is that I don't feel like doing any of them now.
And I know I will regret one day...
To be fair, I am living a really decent life,
I know of people who care about me (Or at least I would like to think so),
I get education,
No worries about food and lodging,
No constant fight or flight mode...
What a good life to have.
But I don't know...
Life feels hopeless right now.
As in even though I get to do the things I want,
there's nothing to look forward to.
Exams, Philippines, Christmas, Outings, Work, Cambodia, US...
Yet, I don't feel all that excited for them...
Have I reached the platonic state of life?

Anyway, lucky for me, yesterday and the day before I had dinner and lunch with two different groups who I have not expect to feel belonged and comfortable being with.
The deep discussions with COS group and the cheerful full-of-life conversations with the Sagittarius group brought me out of the platonic state I had been the past few days in that few hours.
Am also grateful to have sweet friends who remembers what you said to them and remembers how special some day means to me...
THANK YOU Lord.


"It's a long long Journey,
till I don't know where I'm supposed to be...
It's a long long Journey,
And I don't know if I can believe..."

- A song I think most people can relate to, nicely written and sung...

There's a stage, 

there is light,

But there's no one there...

It's empty...

Is it still a stage?

Journey - Angela Zhang

Blessing in Disguise

Some times I wish that I have never entered the happy portrait...
Peeking through the stairwell silently, I've always wondered how good life is, if I have never entered their's.
But I was place into the picture, which is weird.
I have no choice but to stay, it's the only way'.
I believe God sends people to some places because it fits the puzzle...
Just like how some parents receive kids with special needs,
they get them because they themselves are special enough to take care of their child,
some one who will carry them through, making the best out of them.
But not everyone sees it that way...
If there's a misfit in life, I am quite sure that I'm the only misfit it in...
And it is only so that I feel like I don't belong in that place.
Perhaps its just a play of perceptions...

__________________________________________________________________
Anyway, here's a good news.
I have never actually won anything in my life which makes me proud.
So this will be the first time...
Got Best Presenter for my research category in the last colloquium of my uni life! haha..
I am really happy because it is the last thing on earth that I expect to happen.
The minute Ms Winnee announced my name, I was stunned. haha...
THANK YOU MS. JOCELYN for considering me even though I felt that I screwed up.
I am so happy! Here's what I got.

I'm a happy gal!!! ^^

It's a blessing in disguise I guess. 

I couldn't sleep the night before as I haven't finished preparing my whole presentation. 

And minutes before my presentation, I was still changing my slides. 

Really can't believe it happened, THANK YOU GOD! ^^

My last colloquium in HELP, 

the day of  uni... (Before finals),

and it's by default a special day for me.

I am blessed....

Although it didn't went as I would love it to be, 

I learned a valuable lesson that day. 

I guess it covers the whole unpleasantness of the whole day.

My baby's name: A Stranger in Others' Eyes: Subjective Experiences of Foreign Workers

Beneath Your Beautiful - Labyrinth

Hurt

There are times when I say I'm happy,

I'm actually not.

OK doesn't mean that I am really ok.

And feeling better doesn't mean I've recovered. 

Sometimes there's actually pain underneath the smile,

Having the inner struggles deep within, 

not sure how to express it. 

And there goes the people who you thought love you,

saying that you're making things up, 

ignoring you all the time,

thinking that the bad things they say about you,

don't really affect you. 

To be honest,

despite voicing out all the time...

Telling them that they matter to me, so much...

that what they say, actually matters. 

"You're so stupid!" 

"Look at people, they can do it, why can't you?"

"You don't help me... Fine! I give up..."

" We'll break"

Despite how ridiculous they think it is that I take that phrase seriously,

It really does. 

Each and every time someone says something bad about me,

it actually hurts, a lot.

No matter how much positive force or energy does't shield those painful words,

denying it doesn't either.

All it does is to leave scars,

one by one, 

all around me... 

I forget...

I do...

A lil' too easily, I think. 

But the scars remain... 

Every time an incident happens, 

it just tear up the scars...

And the bad things told to me appears all over again...

And I forget... things happens...

It's a cycle.

Am I really that stupid?

Am I such a bad and useless person? 

I do have a brain and a heart...

I feel... I ruminate... I too understand the implications of each and every word uttered towards me...

But it hurts.

I hope you all understand this one day.

Every word uttered can hurt as much as stabbing a knife into a heart. 

That's how I always feel... 

The urge to run towards a nail on a wall...

to stop the pain...

But it just makes it more painful...

Thank you for loving me,

and hurting me the same time.

I guess that's the kind of love you all can give,

all I can do is to deal with it. 

Another thing which makes me sad is also the fact that there's no longer Finn Hudson to cheer the whole glee club up... Rest in Peace, Cory Monteith. 

To Get it Right - Lea Michelle

Submitted

Submitted my thesis proposal...
It really felt like a rock just left my body, but the disappointment towards myself seems to weigh up as much as the lightening of the burden..
I really feel that I can do better.
Its taunting, saddening and at time pricks through the heart when you are reminded about the failure you are...
Well, who's there to blame but me?
Anyway, life must still go on, right?
There are better things to do in life than to dwell in unhappiness~

I really miss my guitar felt instant joy when I played it.
Thanks babe! =)

HohohoHohohohohohHohoho....
Lalalallalallalalalallalalalallalalalal...


Belaian Jiwa - FrequenC cast

Feeling Black

So this is how disappointment feels like.
The hope of fairness and justice, a better future for the nation has been swept down the drain as results revealed one by one on the main stream media, while at the same time, sudden drastic changes occurred as shared in social networks.
While people fight for the rights of having a clean elections, many were disheartened with what is going on in our beloved country...
Never felt the urge of following the politics of the country until the last few days...
With hope, I listened, learned and updated myself about the current trends happening around, only to know how some people can become when things are not favorable to their sight.
It's sad, really sad...

Father, may this be a chance to unite all nations, may all of us come together and become a strong nation as a whole. Lets not be defeated by the evil, but persevere until our next fight comes... And we shall stand as one, voicing our concerns, granting our rights to retain democracy.

_____________________________________________________________________
It has been really hard to focus these days as there are so many things to distract me.
Lost the ability to read well, write well and most of all, plan well.
Sickened by the stereotypes and discrimination launched towards foreigners...
Saddened by the fact that I hadn't achieve anything I set out to do this year...
Am praying that I can get back onto my feet again, learn to love the life God has given to me, take the opportunities that are lying ahead of me, see the future as something hopeful...

Life is too short for regrets...

Do You Hear the People Sing - Les Miserables

Maxim Vangerov

Spent hours watching classical videos and was totally blown off by this young man.
His name?
Maxim Vangerov.
Someone share his performance playing Thai Meditation,
and yeps, that's the song I've been looking for all this while...
The 1st note he played captured me till the end...
He played like he's been playing for a century...
As though he was in his world,
where there is no one else but him and the violin.
The coolest thing was,
he played the Sibelius concerto for half and hour,
standing in front of the stage,
with the majestic orchestra behind and
playing to his heartstrings...
Bravo!
Later I stumbled upon a video which features his masterclass.
He taught four young proteges (I may say) a unique approach to present songs...
In which his secret was to visualize the music in their minds,
and tell the story with the violin...
Then, he was only 24...
So young yet so mature, so talented and soulful...
Never thought that we can actually interpret a piece using our way,
and tell stories using people's music.
The whole 45 minutes was indeed facinating...

It really inspires me to want to be like him,
to play like nothing else matters,
to play like I owned the world...

Maxim Vangerov, thank you!
I really miss vio right now...

Tchaikovsky's violin Concerto

Simple Quiet Night

A night drenched in good music.

Am totally WOW-ed by the number of talents we have in this world.
Juz by randomly clicking on random links got my goosebumps up.
Mezmerized by the mind lingering melodies,
coupled with voices which pulls your heartstrings...
Simply wonderful.

A couple of years ago,
was juz chilling in my living room,
watching anything that was on TV,
there was a man who left a really deep mark in my mind.
As AGT was airing,
I sat there watching auditions to auditions... until this man came...
I forgot what was his name,
but he looked and sound as normal and silly as one could be...
As he talked about himself during the introduction session,
no one knew what he'd got in him,
everyone (me included) was expecting something rather normal,
as though nothing spectacular would come out of this man with a cap wore towards the back, in a huge jacket and old jeans..
But there's something in him which kept me wondering....
No one would ever guessed that this timid man would change our lives...
(At least mine...)
The 1st note he sung,
caught me immediately...
Goosebumps rises,
time seems to freeze as he delivers his song,
the emotions and intensity...
It was juz one word....'WOW'!
And I know I'll never forget this skinny farmer who WOWed everyone with a simple performance,
with key ingredients:his infectious voice and simple rhythms of a guitar.

One thing I regretted not doing is that I did not catch his name...
And there goes my intentions to use the search engine...
I thought I can never get to know more about him again...


Until... Today...
He appeared on one of the sidebars of the video I was watching...
Two words 'Emotional Performance',
and I know I've found him once again...
And again,
his voice charmed me over again...
His name is Kevin Skinner... I will remember this name for good！ haha...
You'll know what I mean by watching this. =)

Another stunning performance of a guy from AGT too...

Found him by accident too...

Matt Cardle... Listen and you'll understand...

The Lord is so great, 

Creating such wonderful talents so that they can influence the word slowly,

by using their best assets, the gift from God...

Thank you so much for providing so much wonderful music on earth...

THank you Father!

 What an AWESOME night to do some thinking...=)

Life's like a rainbow, 

we never know when a will rainbow appears until we see it...

Ciaos~ =)

AWESOME

New post after a long time, entitled AWESOME!

Am above my head right now~~ Way up high…

Couldn’t believe how the Lord works in such wonderful ways…

Just wanna say, music is awesome,

And being able to perform with people who click so much with ya,

When all of you sing, it just feels so right…

Yea, that simple magical moment…

Maybe He heard my call the want to do something impromptu,

A gig perhaps… or maybe just a stage,

There, chance appeared, we took it,

And transformed it into this tingly feeling I have now,

Keeping our melody in my head going round and round

Thank you so much gals!

It feels so AWESOME to be random sometimes!!!

Wanted to share some pics of the AWESOME moments...

But we hadn’t had much pics... 

Which made me think, why do we sometimes, 

Take tons of random pictures for no reason,

and when that IT moment comes which you dwell into it so much,

I find that there aren’t much tangible evidence of that awesome IT moment…

Yes, maybe we are all so sure that the moment we are experiencing the precious IT,

It will be embedded into our minds forever.

Yes, that’s how I feel now and that’s how I see…

The certainty that all of us felt the same kind of butterflies, caterpillars or whatsoever in our bodies…

Sure that we are all on the same page….

No matter if we did it well, or if we made a mistake...

Nothing matters....

Life’s beautiful…. Music rocks… And I’m contented.

Thank you for giving to the Lord…  Del, Shuli….

Thank You for being so AWESOME my Lord!!!

 Life’s AWESOME!!! =)

“I won’t give up on us… Even if the skies get rough,

\I’m giving you all my love, I’m still looking up…”

I Won’t Give Up-Jason Mraz

Boo!

Happy new Year peeps!
The 1st post of 2012, cheers!!
Life had been great ever since I lead my new life,
Exams, holidays, outings, Christmas, New Year, more holidays...
It was a pretty great year as I started a new kind of living,
the education I wanted,
the institution I dreamt of,
the event I've always pictured myself doing,
places I never thought of traveling,
meeting people I will regret not knowing,
not to forget, achieving most of my dreams and goals,
getting everything I wanted,
going on the slow pace with all the people I will ever need.
Life's great! Close to perfect.
Year 2011 really did me well,
and I praise God for that! Thank you!!!!

Now 2012,
hadn't thought much of what to achieve
since I've done most of it...
Anyway, live goes on...
No matter what,
nothing should stop us from moving forward,
this is what I truly believe.

Watched a few mind-changing movies these couple of weeks.

First comes is We Bought a Zoo.

Sometimes what we as human need,

is truly 20 seconds of embarrassing courage

to do the things you'd never pictured yourself doing. 

Yea, like buying a zoo... 

The simple concept that the absolute partner comes one in a lifetime and 

mere courage changes practically everything made the show whole.

Matt Damon with his outstanding skill of handling his roles,

Real life animals who moves heartstrings,

the simple moral behind the whole story,

and the best part is,

the story happened in reality...

A five Star movie

Do watch it if you feel that there's nothing much to look forward to... =)

Another captivating story, 

which really got my attention is an old movie,

Freedom Writers.

Yea, a Hilary Swank movie.

A story about racism,

and how integration began...

An issue that needs the attention of each and everyone of us,

even till this day...

The small little voice of everyone needs to be heard,

to make the world a better place.

Who says the power of an individual cannot change the world?

As long as we believe that we what we do will make a difference,

it will.

Was driven off by the persistence of Ms.

her vision of seeing a clean and fair system,

where everyone gets equal treatment.

Everyone has their own story to tell, 

it's up to us to hear them out or turn a deaf ear...

For me, everyone tends to be a little racist in their own way,

maybe it's due to egocentrism, I'm not sure...

Do watch this show and see if it voice out to you

as loud as it did to me. =)

Am wishing everyone to have a colourful 2012,

everyone's important.

Remember,

we're all part of an important system.

 p.s.: Drew and Chris, I'll always root for ya guys! Continue to change the world with your music!!! RAWR~~~ 

Bound To You-Drew

Reborn

Am reborn for 1 week now.
It's been are really thrilling experience,
starting anew.
Though nothing much changed,
except the fact that I used up my second chance of living,
everything seems to go well.
I get to tell everyone how amazing it felt,
when I was immersed into the water,
or how blessed I am to finally accepted Him.

Always thought that there would be some form of drastic change
after I come out of the water,
but how wrong I am.
It's only the start of a new journey.
The path we are making,
in order to reach Him eventually..
There's still so many to learn,
so much to understand,
and heaps more the CHANGE...

I am only at the beginning,
making my way towards our final destination..
Really excited about what's bound to come.
Hopefully I will do well,
and also bring others to my realization
of how blessed we are...

There's no doubt that He loves us dearly,
so it's time for us to show Him ours...
Dear Lord, may I be more like you!
To help, care, forgive and love everyone around me,
just like what Your Son did.
Thank you for everything,
You're the BEST! =)

Can't believe I get to see them with my bare eyes!

STOMP were breath-taking!

Please do come back soon! 

Let's play it to the beat~ ~

Last week had been a really blessed week. Everything good happened! Haha...
And I know its all because of You...


"I will be still, and know You're God..."

Still-Hillsong

Good Will Hunts

It would really be great if I have a friend like Chuckie,

Will’s best friend in the movie Good Will Hunting…

All he wants is the best for his friend,

To not waste the talent Will has,

that can change the world…

The words his used, is so powerful, there’s no better words to put it.

No matter how many f***s uttered

Or whatever rude words used,

A true friend is a true friend, no matter who a person is,

Or what does the person look like…

Amusing…. Fascinating… Empowering…

Shawn is a good man / psychologists / therapists / friend /counselor…

Robin Williams is a great actor,

Matt Damian, with his usual charismatic aura…

I am not saying that the moral of the story is good,

Or the script of the story is breath-taking…

The language especially… urgh… indescribable…

There are also scenes which are not soothing for the eyes….

But the facts of the story is real,

The intense conversations you get in the movie,

The unyielding personalities,

And the complicated pasts are absolutely astonishing.

To tell the truth, 

I know someone who's like Will...

The genius in him, 

the attitude...

I can't help but to think that how good will it be

if Chuckie and Shawn is around to boost him up.

Hope that I could as influential as Chuckie or Shawn,

who is able to change Will's point of view...

Life is like a crossroad.
We always stop and wonder which way to go.
Unless we take a step out and give it a try,
We'll never know.
Peace be with everyone who is walking on different paths of their lives...

SPMers, STPMers and Yi..

The Hardest Thing-Tylar Ward

Back!

Finally, I earned myself a lil' bit of time to update what has happened in my life!

Upon my previous post, this is a follow up story about my new furry friend.
Ok, I should not say that it is my friend, yet, but am very confident that we will be near future.

Right, my dog (I like to call it my dog) now has a new staying place,
somewhere very near which I can see it everyday.
It no longer clings under my car for shelter,
the place it is right now provides more comfort.
For awhile, I really thought I lost it after its disappearance after the 2nd day I found it!
It was a real relieve.
As soon as me and pa found its current location, we tried to lure it out,
as to invite it into our family,
but it didn't happen.
We tried all sorts of ways,
whistling, flashing lights so that it sees us, feeding it, try to talk to him...
**Oops, its gender is still yet to be defined, but am assuming its a He**

We were tipped by our neighbor that its leg was injured but it is better now...
Phew, thank God that it can still mobile fine...
Am still on the verge of befriending him,
trying my best to feed it / play with it as much as I can,
filling my mind with the thought that it may soon be officially called - my dog!

Am making some progress now... See, it posed for me!

Ain't it handsome! hehe...

Wish me luck!

Oh ya, speaking of luck, just wanna share something that happened to me recently.
I am a seriously very lucky person...
N days ago, I left A (A=something of mine which is very important)on the bus...
Only found out long after I embarked the bus...
Leaving pity A behind...
So, with much disappointment of myself, I called it one of my BAD DAYS...
Everyone told me that it is very unlikely that I may find A again...
Sadden by the fact that I may have lost A forever, I returned home telling ma...
As I was thinking of ways and efforts to try my luck,
to give it a shot of finding A,
miracle happened.
Someone phoned my house saying that it found A and is willing to return it to mua...
Haha!!!!
The someone was the bus driver of the bus and he really tried his best to return A to me..
You know, as a bus driver, he is always on the go...
He is even willing to bring A to me at 11pm at night,
how kind was that?
However, our time didn't clicked and he sought for different solutions for us to meet up..
Unbelievably, A is back with me now!
Thank you bus driver Zul, you are one of the kindest man I've seen,
trying your very best to return something so unimportant,
and making such a huge effort to contact us every time you are free...
Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

Nowadays, everyone is so stereotypical about the hearts of human beings,
assuming that no one in this earth would do anything kind,
as to go all the way out to return something insignificant to you.
People always say, people might have stolen your thing,
or there is no way that you can find your things back...
Well, I found the someone which maybe the 1 out of 100 people.
There's still a lot of hope in this world,
we just have to have some faith in it...

I like to believe that
what God takes from you, he will return it with something more precious...
It may be a lesson, an experience, a sense of hope, or even something very small...
it is still much valuable than the thing you lost...

Peace for tomorrow...

Skyscrapper - Demi Lovato

There it Goes Again

A doggy was found under my car!
It was there since morning and haven't left there since.
Dad was very concern that it may bite and hence,
he used water to spray it so that it may leave.
It did, turned a round, and went under the car again.
How cute.
Another thought was to remove the car hoping that it will leave somehow.
And we took the car for a drive.
THis is the moment I first met this special doggy.
As the car was removed, it stood up, but didn't walk away.
It stood there for a moment, staring straight into my eyes,
as though saying "help me!"
I was shocked by how calm this little dog is,
the strong-willed, determined and stern eyes,
like it has witness every possible thing of the surface of the earth,
but yet, there's some degree of sorrow and grief clouding those bright little eyes.
I was moved.

As the car moved away, the doggy walked around,
looking back at the spot it just laid.
It walked across the road, to a neighbor's house, the turn to another,
making effort of squeezing its head between the metal bars,
in hope of squeezing into the house compound.
This special dog has a sentence written all around its face
"I am Lost"
Poor little doggy....
It's attempt of enter the house compound through the little spaces of the gate failed.
Tried another house, failed.
Eventually, it found another car to hid under.
As my car came back to its rightful place, we thought that the dog said it's goodbyes...
But moments later, it came back again.
Haha...
It's either the spot my car is parked is so comfortable,
or that my car is too 'hot' to leave.

haha... The eagerness of this interesting doggy is amusing,
There's nothing else we can do but to let it there.
I had some wild imaginations after meeting the dog,
the thought of it being ours, jogging and playing with it,
helping it to bath excites me...

But the rejection of my idea from pa and ma spoils it all...

All I can hope is to meet it everyday and befriend this little creature!
See ya under the car tomorrow, doggy! =)


In The Mood-Swing Girls

I am Sam

Possibly the best movie in the whole wide world.
Who says autism or retardation holds back a person’s ability to take care of others?
A normal person might think that they have what it takes to raise a child,
They think they undergo every hard ships in life, have the best experience or ability to take care of others.
But do they know the struggles of those who are born special?
Do they even understand how hard they must try to do a simple thing such as adding 2+2?

We all take advantages of what we can do,
Think that as we have the standard brain just like anybody else, we have the right to make decisions for those who don’t.
Who in the earth has the authority to separate a parent from his or her child?
No one, accept the One and Only.
No human beings can take a child away from his or her parents who loved them more than themselves, No one.

Sam is one of the most amazing people I have ever seen.
Sometimes I often wonder, won’t it be better to think as simple as he is,
See things as all beautiful so that I won’t get to see the dark side on earth…
The special ones are the more blessed and perfect people compared to us, normal people as they know how to treasure every moment, every skills, everything they have.
We, ungrateful brats, sulk with the many things we already have, not to say the many things we can do, we are the unfortunate ones.
Sam Dawson, you are wonderful, you are perfect! Thanks giving me the chance to see and know more about you and your life! =)

Applause to Sean Penn, Michelle Pfeiffer, Dakota Fanning and the whole behind it for this fantastic and heart whelming movie.

Quotes which move hearts:
“You’re the red in her paintings,”

“I am her father.”

P.S.: Sam said something like “Jessie Mccartney wrote the song Michelle. He wrote the first few lines and passed to John Lenon who wrote “I love you, I love you, I love you” Annie said that the song won’t be complete without it…” in the movie. He had a point there. XD

We’ll Be A Dream – We the Kings ft. Demi Lovato

We Did It!

We finally did it!!!
Achieved what we started out to do!!!!
Organized a mini show,
and to get as much donations as we can!

Have to thanks Sha for backing the initial idea, and to go through the whole thing with me,
Tham who asked loads of questions about the whole event, and of coz, performed!
Yi, Ni, Teddy, LiSha, Zhen Pei, Yee Wen, Char, Disney, Tim, the Youths who agreed to perform,
My parents especially, for being so Supportive,
Sis who gave me so much encouragement,
Joy and A. Cindy who baked and made fantastic cupcakes, cookies and pudding!
Church members for giving so many positive response,
My friends and family who attended the event,
Henry and Joanne who took loads of pics for us,
Everyone who helped in any kind of way,
Pusat Jagaan Orang Kurang Upaya Si Putih's supervisor, Mrs Rajes who provided so much info,
Each and everyone who donated to the funds!! You...you...you...you...you!!!
And not forgetting,
our Mighty LORD, who was, is and always be there for us, to make things right.
Lord, thank you for making this happen to me...

This whole thing started out with a small dream,
a dream almost impossible to happen....
A dream to raise funds solely by asking people to watch performances.
The dream was shared, agreed,
Shared to more, more responses...
Positive and negative, we went on,
looking for performers,
not easy, but its a really fun process...
Date, time and venue was set, It's really happening!!!!
Practicing for the performances,
the best thing that happened throughout the whole event...
Spreading the word out,
not easy as well, not many supports art and charity at the same time...

The whole event began like a dream,
really can't believe it is really happening...
Not many turned up, but the initial target was there...
Seeing people putting money inside the blue donation box,
it felt real good.... At least we've got some money inside!!!
We were the 1st performance, did everything we rehearsed tons of times...
The crowd seemed to enjoy it.
Performance after performance,
everyone was really quiet,
but they seemed to be concentrating very hard on the performances.
At least its better than making noise, right?
Intermission, everyone happily bought the food we prepared,
sat down and chatted delightfully...
I have nothing to worry about now....
Some mic probs for the next performance,
but Disney sang beautifully....
We're the next in line again!
And we went up and had loads of fun....
You guys rock ya! EXPH!!!! XD
Tim on his bass tone,
Intro of the centre,
And lastly, our gal band!!!!
More mic probs again, but it felt real good!!!
So this is how it is like being in a band! Haha...
Hymns (More to work on)
and lastly duet.
My Chains are Gone is so powerful, something flickered as we sang...
Counted the donations... WHOA!
1 K+!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY
MORE than we expected!
Hope that I'm not dreaming..... Ouch! I'm not!!! LOL!

Though not everything went on smoothly,
Though we can't call it a perfect/successful event,
we collected funds which can help improve lives...
I enjoyed the whole process...
Waking up early in the morning...
Practicing whole day long...
Come back at night,
Jamming....
Talking to friends,
asking for opinions,
Making new friends,
promoting the event,
and even... DREAMING about the event...
I'm Lovin' it!!!! Haha....
Got to do everything I longed to do, there's nothing more that I can say....


And we went to pay a visit to the home.
Another dream come true...
Went shopping for groceries with a list in hand with Sha and Disney.
Spent the whole 2 hours grabbing things,
choosing and picking like what old man and aunties does...
calculating every penny....
Take this.... Grab that.... Which one should we buy???
Really have to salute all the aunties who goes shopping for groceries...

*TABIK!*

Finally got to know that its not easy to be an aunty... or at least try to be one.... XD
2 trolleys full... For the 1st time in my whole tinny whinny life,
I actually bought THIS MUCH AMOUNT OF GROCERIES!!!!
And EVERYTHING IS SO FREAKING DAMN EXPENSIVE!!!!!
Once again... *TABIK AUNTIES!*

We finally reached the small little corner house after getting lost in the middle of nowhere...
Mrs Rajes is really a nice women with a really big heart.
Can't believe I actually got to see her in person!!
There were various kinds of kids there
Down Syndrome, Autism, cerebral palsy, mental problems, Learning Disorders...
Mrs Rajes sat there and talked about each and everyone of the children she has....
We went snooping around the house, touching this, touching that...
And she continued explaining everything that we see....
Most of the children have the inability to speak except for one of two...
Some are able to help in chores,
some juz sits there.... smiling the whole time, not talking or doing anything else...
They are all really cute and beautiful children...
Perfect in God's eyes.....
Everyone is born with their own uniqueness....
You and I the same....

Glad that we got to visit the centre and to know more about the children.
Lets just hope that the children will live better with a lil' help from all of us.
Shall return someday to have another visit sometime....
I'm CONTENTED and HAPPY!!! =)

Pusat Jagaan Orang Kurang Upaya Si Putih

3348, Jalan Seroja 16,
Taman Seremban, Jalan Tampin
70100 Seremban.

Ee Sin should be thinking about Jerry as we are taking the pic. LOL!!!

Stand Out Mini Charity Show 2011,
a Success!!!!
(At least for the donation part)

p.s.: If any of you are interested in donating, do contact me ya! Happy Birthday Malaysia!
Merdeka! Merdeka! Merdeka!!! ^^

Perfect-Pink

Stand Out Mini Charity Concert

Hey guys, juz wanna share about a little event I'm doing now...
I have this desire to do something which combines the two things I love,
Music and aiding...
And I am about to make it happen...

This event is called Stand Out! Mini Charity Concert
Which means that we want people to stand out and give to others,
Stand Out to make a change in the lives of others...
To stand out for those who needs a hand,
for people to stand out and make an effort to aid the souls out there who are less fortunate,
to allow people to stand out it showing their talents,
and also to stand out in making a change in our own lives by sharing a portion of them with others.

I don't have ambitious target, juz a small amount from everyone will do.
Coz in my mind, a little strength from everyone can really move mountains,
Little small effort from everyone can change the world....
All I want it for people to chirp in small amounts cheerfully....
To know that every cent they are giving will help a person have another hope in life...

A few performance will be lined out for everyone to watch,
though they might not be the best ever performance you will see,
but at least you can see their efforts....
A sign of appreciation for your cheerfulness...
They are also need your support to give them courage to get on stage again...

We just want to help people,
and hopefully you do too.

Do join us on the 27th Aug, this Sat, 4.30pm-6.00pm, at Seremban Church of Christ.
I want to make it straight here that it is not a church event, and am not trying to change your religion, it is only the church premise we are using to make the small desire of mine happen.
Its something personal, so don't hesitate to come.

Hope to see you there. =)


p/s: A little boy broke his piggy bank just to give every penny he had to help others even before the day of the event. I am so touched by his big heart and also the innocence he had with him. Thank you so much, Tim, you gave me the strength to move on. Also to the Lord who created someone as kind as him, You are the Sole, Mighty and Powerful... THANK YOU!!!



Amazing Grace by anyone who sings it with his/her heart

Tuesdays with Morrie

I would really like to have a professor like Morrie.
Someone you can really talk to,
who listens and gives you the answers that you had been searching all your life...
Seriously, can a person be as wise and as optimistic as him?
He's truly someone who is well-liked,
strong, keen, cheerful, hilarious, knowledgeable...
His words are wise...

" We must love one another, or die..." (Yeah, its quoted)
" When you learn how to die, you learn how to live..."
" Love always wins..."
" Tuesdays, we are Tuesday people..."

He lived his life doing what he loves best,
Teaching, dancing and eating...
And when he knows that he's dying...
he had to give up the latter two...
but continued the only thing he can possibly do...
Teaching.
Everyone needs someone like him...
The words uttered from his mouth,
its like gold we should treasure and apply in our lives.
Like scriptures,
but his words comes from his personal experience. (And more of a personal thought)
The lesson of life..
How much about it each and everyone of us know?
What do you want to do if you are given 24 hours of a perfect day??

Tuesdays with Morrie,
a marvelous show which talks about the basics of life...
Inspiring, heartwarming and funny...
Watch and learn...

Morrie mentioned something about listening to the bird on your shoulders...

Is there really a bird?

p/s: Janine in the movie sang a beautiful song....

It's juz too nice to let go

It's almost 4a.m. and I have no intentions of going to bed any sooner...
Juz sitting here plainly, watching videos of people singing...
If everyone can sing like 洪佩瑜, I would rather not sleep,
despite being up the whole day,
the dreadful mourns of both my eyes,
the deafening cries of every muscles of my body...

Music lifts the soul...
People with great voice should be praised,
and there are countless of them all over the world...
If only I would get the time and chance the hear each of them out...
Filling my heart and mind with every harmonious pitch they make...

Music heals the soul...
That's all I can say...


洪佩瑜-Dance with My Father

Run

Joined S'ban Half Marathon 2011 today.
Finished the 9km, pass the finish line and got the medal I wanted.
Ya, nothing special,
except the fact that for someone as slow as me got a qualifier medal,
that's PURE luck.

Anyway, what I wanna say here is not to boast about what I got.
But about this lady.
There was a lady in the marathon today,
Tim found her crying loudly, ranting about something...
looking all around, as though searching for something...
And on her hands was 2 Glatorade sample cups....
It was assumed that she lost her kid...
She cried and cried, ranting and ranting,
Tim asked if we should do something about it...
I said we should, but let's observe and see what is she actually looking for first...
And we stood there watching her sitting at this corner,
not moving an inch, crying...
with the 2 cups of Glatorade glued firmly on her palms.
I thought: For a women who has juz lost her child, she's relatively calm...

After not too long,
she started moving into the crowd,
crying and ranting...
This is when Tim glides off and followed her,
with me trying hard to keep up behind..
And he approached her and asked what happened.
She juz replied:" cari ibu..." and cries...
She stomps away looking all around crying loudly...
Pushing through the crowds, I finally kept up with them.
We are at the place where the big shots are seated.
Tim's trying to get the PA guy to make and announcement,
but got rejected as the BiG Shot was making a speech...
The lady started crying loudly and shouting for her mother again..
What caught my attention most was not how many gazes were directed towards us,
or how many annoyed faces were shown that moment,
but the fact that after all the yelling and sobbing,
she still have the 2 cups of Glatorade with her.

The impatient reaction of the PA guy pisses me as he couldn't get her to calm down.
I mean, come on! She lost her mother!!!
Where's your patience???
After answering some questions by some other people around there,
the lady started crying again....
This time, the big shots glanced our direction,
but their butts still glued to their seats.
I dunno if they are being respectful to the guy talking in front,
or juz mere ignorance,
no effort was made to know what's going on.
Anyway, as the workers round there find her disturbing the speech,
she was asked to sit, calm down, stop crying..
Taken to another place for I dunno-for-what and talk to another bunch of people...
Tim and I juz stood far away, watching her,
to see if she's getting the help she needed...
She stopped crying for awhile,
and the tap flowed out not long after.
Few ladies started bringing her around,
in the attempt of looking for her mother...
Remember, she's emotional, terrified, scared, and unstable...
Dun forget, the 2 cups of Glatorade she's put much importance on.
So, as this emotional young lady was storming out once again to find her 'ibu',
Squeezing through a crowd,
some Glatorade will surely spill out on her way, right?
And surely, in a situation packed with people,
some lucky one will get a portion of the Glatorade on them...
They cursed her.
Saying bad things about her.
I was mad...
But why pick up a fight with people who doesn't care?
Back to the topic,
she found her mum.
Standing there waiting for her.
And she burst into tears again,
holding her mum tightly to her.
I didn't see if she's still holding the 2 cups after that anot,
but it was a happy ending.
Tim and I were really happy.

You see, in this event,
we get to see actually how many people who are living in their own world,
not wanting to understand that its not the world you are in important,
but is the world you are out of that is...
Money is not important...
Live is.

"Our faith in God is like a marathon... We have to run until the end till we reach our destination... Heaven..."

Dun give up.

Headlines:
~ Super star, Amy Winehouse died at 27
~ 98 dies of gunshots by a police imposter in Norway
~ 10, 000 dies out of hunger per day becoz of the famine in Somalia

How depressing...

Price Tag (Acoustic) -Jessie J